I still find myself......What about You?

Isn't feeling "normal" a wonderful feeling?!   I still find it to be very surreal. 

I still find myself sitting down "softly" into an unfamiliar chair for fear of breaking it. (I did this tonight at the fitness center). 

I still find myself drawn to the Plus sizes before I realize I don't have to go there anymore.

I still find myself being reluctant to climb stairs because I still think that it will take a considerable effort.  (it doesn't)

I still find myself putting too much food on my plate.....my eyes are literally bigger than my stomach.

I still find myself thinking "I'll TRY to walk around the block".  Even though I know I can walk 2 miles before my knees start protesting.

I still find myself using the handicapped stall in restrooms, because there is more room to allow for entering and leaving.

I still find myself automatically pushing the driver's seat back away from the steering wheel because I think I won't  fit. 

I still find myself pulling the seatbelt out as far as it will go to fit around me. 

I still find myself avoiding sitting in a booth at  a restaurant because I don't want my stomach rubbing against the table. (I still don't like booths because I'm short and feel like the table is even with my *****

I still find myself looking in the mirror just to be sure that it's really me and the weight is gone.

What about  you.....

I still find myself thinking I'll wake up tomorrow and be the same old fat me.
I still find myself dressing in oversized cloths because I think I need to.

I didn't do a lot of these things when fat, so not so much now. The main thing for me is to catch sight of myself in a mirror or window reflection and be shocked at how thin I am. It's like I forget and have to be reminded.

The other thing is, any time I gain the least amount of weight, I feel like I'm ENORMOUS and everyone is whispering about how fat I am and how I'm going to gain all the weight back. Even when I've only gained 3 pounds and no one but me could possibly tell.

when at goal, 3 pounds can be a huge deal.

It can be.

But 3 pounds isn't 100 pounds and for a while now I've been feeling like I weigh 200 again, which is just ridiculous.

did you keep any of your fat clothes? the "running into" my old underwear really helped because I also had that ridiculous feeling that the couple pounds I had gained made me huge again.  our minds sure think stupid things sometimes.

darnit, I threw the giant panties away.

It is nice not avoiding booths, now my skinny friends don't have to pull the table towards them.
I also love to cross my legs even though I know it will eventually break every vein on the back of the other leg but it is just so nice to be able to!
If an XL T-Shirt is too tight, I just won't buy it because I am just not buying in the plus department.
Kathy

Sometimes, when I catch my reflection in a mirror or window, I am surprised that I look so small.

In the morning, I wake up and wonder, if my size 2 jeans/pants are going to be too tight and I am generally surprised that they fit.

Sometimes, I think that mirrors are distorting my shape and I am really fatter than what they are showing. This happens in the gym and when I am shopping for clothes.

It is a bit surreal at times, at how much better I feel, how much more energy I now have, how my mood has improved, and how strong I am becoming.

I feel like a different person and apparently, look like a different person, from what people say to me.

I feel like the WLS has been a gift and I will do everything possible to maintain all the gains that I have achieved.

Good topic!

I am past that and instead I now tend to forget I used to be much bigger. couple weeks ago I ran into a pair of my old underwear and was astonished at how huge they were. good heavens!

 "couple weeks ago I ran into a pair of my old underwear "

I hope nothing was hurt in the collision.