Honesty!

I am almost three years out and I am fooling myself everyday. I went in to having the sleeve promising I would live life to the fullest. Do everything by the letter T. Well I haven't been for awhile and it shows. On the scales, my clothes, my attitude too.

I had a rough start and I went through a lot post-op to give into a commercial advertising profitable lifestyle of junk food and carbs.

My portions have gotten bigger as in breads and some pasta, little rice and carby junk foods. I graze like crazy. I work very hard at work, But, my body has gotten used to it. I don't sweat doing it. I don't get my heart rate up.

I have gained 20lbs back from my lowest weight. Or should I say I have played the yo-yoing game. The post by Elina hit home the other day. I keep seeing the scale creeping up slowly but surely. Then I would get on a kick and lose 10lbs to just put it back on again over time.

I received a YMCA gift card two years ago and still haven't used it. WHY, what holds me back! Body image is still haunting me. I see my pannus and being huge, when I was 300+ pounds.

I want to take the right steps back into what I should have been doing!

Going to breakfast
Eat two other meals and 2 snacks, if need.
I will drink water.
I will get my heart rate up one way or another.
I will take my vitamins.
Track my daily intake.
Keep in the 900-1200 calories a day recommended by my surgeon for life.
Going to live a lower carb lifestyle. I know that will work for me.
I will love me and treat myself well by nurturing it the proper way!

Hugs and loves

Donna



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Darlin you can do it...

I am glad my post hit home.  This is a big part of why I post here.  I hope that others will see themselves in my posts the way I see myself in others posts.  It helps doing this together.  I am glad you are being honest with yourself and are ready to recommit. Are you journaling your food intake?  Nothing helps me get my head back in the game as much as journaling does.  There is something very honest about seeing the numbers. 

Donna I remember well some of your posts from a couple of years ago when I first started reading OH and I remember you had some rough times and issues. But you recovered and prevailed. And you will do the same thing this time. My surgeon has said a zillion times that a regain of 10 to 20 lbs is pretty normal. That doesn't mean you have to accept it or not do something about it, but it does mean that you are not a successful weight loss patient or that you can't address this because you can.

You have already taken a big step in making this post and laying out a plan for addressing those extra pounds. Carbs can be killer for many of us and I too am facing the realization that about 1100 calories is all I am going to be able to eat a day for life.  But with the sleeve and a little planning and pushing those carbs away it is doable. So even if you don't do everything on the list perfectly every single day, if you do most of it a lot of the time you can accomplish what you want.

And the last thing on your list  is maybe most important. Nurture your inner soul by shutting out any self doubt. Reach for protein first when you eat  and also reach for good self feelings first by finding something to complement yourself on. We all need to do this.

Thanks for sharing your story and please keep us updated. Post on the daily weigh in and exercise check. I am just starting to read Shrink Yourself at Brandylyn's suggestion. It has some interesting insights on reasons for getting into bad eating habits and what to do about it. Might be of interest.

All the best. Diane

Hi Sweet Donna,

First of all

Secondly I am so proud of you!

You are right there with several of us.  Who would have thought we would get here eh?  I said never ever again... and all it took was a lack of will power to get back on track after Chistmas and bam here I am.

Honey, we can do this.  I am concerned about Yo-Yo dieting, that is one of the reasons I was off track for so long.  I do not want to gain and lose and gain and lose and get back into a life of yo-yo dieting!!

I am now ready, really ready, to get this back off, and stay on plan.  I have learned from the book 10 Thin Commandments, that I need to have a plan, I need to structure my life and food and be prepared.  I know what to do and what not to do.  I need to plan for the days when life or my will power throws me for a loop, and choose to react according to my plan, so that that snack or meal does not derail me.  It is one snack or meal, then I am back on plan.

I am starting to realize I will have to watch for the rest of my life.  That realization is huge for me.  Are you there yet?  If we watch most of the time, then we can indulge and slack off some of the time... but not the other way around.

Just remember how far you have come, remember how you looked and felt at your lowest, and when you are ready, take the steps necessary to give that feeling and look back to yourself.  We are in control, we make the decsions, we can have what we want... we just have to have a plan.

I am so proud of you honey, we are all here for you.  Several of us are in the same boat, and I am proud to be in such good company.  It makes me realize I am not alone, and I know I am not a failure and do you know why?  Because I don't see any of my freinds that re-gained as a failure... so how can I be?

Let's do this my sweet sweet friend, we are so worth it.  Grab a good book like Shrink Yourself or 10 Thin Commandments and read it everyday, add it to you wonderful list above!

I am proud of you honey, and know I am right there with you holding your hand, to get and give the love and support we bothl need.

Big long warm loving hugs to you my dear friend,

Cindy

Hi Donna!

I'm loving the avie - are you kissing a dolphin, where was this?

you know what? 20 pounds feels like a ton but only because you are almost at goal. if you were obese, it would not. 

you will prevail!!!

Hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii,

Yes, it's a dolphin! We did the dolphin swim at Discovery Cove/Sea World in Florida on Feb 12/11..

It was an amazing expirence! One I would of never done pre-surgery!!

Hugs

Donna

Love this pic. Two happy smiling creatures!  Diane

You can do it Donna!

Hugs and loves back atcha!