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xp Help, I cant stop
Copy and paste from the front, for continuity. Hey.. do you think these words will count against me? Like at the 10 item only checkout, if you have the same item, does not it only count as 1 item?
Blarg. This is me, wishing I did not know what you meant about super delicious foods. Where your belly gets finished before your mouth is. Those things I cannot have here at home either. If I have them at a restaurant, I have to have some until I think "just one more bite" and then I douse that crap in more pepper than I could ever care to dig through and cover it with a napkin.
Theory - nobody ever was GLAD for that "just one bite" Plenty of people show up here and ***** about it, that's the scenario I play out until the end when I think that. And I think about me spending the rest of the evening in the bathroom, sliming over the toilet.
I have never slimed over food (once over some chewable vitamin C on an empty stomach and lay down too fast, but never food) but I sure doan wanna.
And I do know what you mean about there being grey foods.
Nuts I cannot have as a regular fare. There are never enough for my mouth. Forget about puddings, the texture of them and yogurt make me obsessive and want to eat them until they are not in the house anymore. I cannot even have a container of ricotta cheese here, because I keep thinking "what could I do with that NOW!!? ?" Used to be every time I go grocery shopping, when I go over to the yogurt section to pick them up for fella, I stare lustily at the Kozy Shak Tapioca pudding and have this conversation.
T - "Maybe you could, just this once. You could maybe tolerate it now, B. You are better than you were before, you would not have to suck it down out of the container and it would be gone before you got (the 7 miles) home"
M - Yea. Right. And pigs might fly right out of my ass, right here at the Kroger, Trix.
T - "but B!! Maybe! Some things you *are* better with!!"
M - Okay Trix - think with me. I am going to open it.
T - "Yea! "
M - And then I am either going to be superdee pleased that its thick gooberdy puddin in there or, I am going to be kind of bummed that its watery pudding
T - "Yea"
M - And then, its not going to matter if its yummy and goobledy or nasty and runny, I am going to eat a serving anyway.
T - YEA!
M - And its going to be superdee great in my mouth.
T - YES M'AM!!
M - And then I am going to put it away, but I will not be able to do anything or think about anything single mindedly until its gone. Right?
T - well.
M - RIGHT?
T - Yea.
M - And then I will eat it gone, even if that means having to get up at 1 in the morning and eat that **** gone, because I will not be able to sleep because I have some insane obsession about it, just like before, right?
T - Yea.
M = And then - its going to be morning, light of day, sun shiney and bright. And how am I going to feel?
T Crappy.
M Just crappy?
T No. Crappy and lethargic. And then you are going to wanna start to snack fella's yogurts, and then his cereal, which is going to give you the superhuman farts.
M And what then Trix.. What then about every time I pass this freaking store?
T You are going to think about this pudding.
M That's right. And I have mo betta things to do, than obsess about this stupid pudding that is going to be gone in an hour MAX that I am going to waste at least a day obsessing about if I try and pretend that 1 serving will be enough. One whole day for a 4 dollar tub of tapioca pudding AND huge chunks of sanity AND days after that getting the monkey back off my back? And then having broken my promise to me that the foods THAT I USED HEAVILY TO GET FAT ON are foods I am buying in my regular grocery stuff? Are you ****ting me?
T Well. It *would* be delicious.
M Yes. It would. And it will STILL be delicious the next time we have some sort of function that it will be appropriate to bring pudding for and I remember. Maybe spring fling. Okay? Lets block it in for Spring Fling every year and we are not having this conversation.
Trix got tired of this conversation ending the same, and so now she looks at the pudding and says Heeey! See ya spring fling! Whoot! and leaves me the hell alone about it.
Cheese? If I have a block, I will obsess about it until its gone, slices? Not so much babybells? Gotta eat em. Cream cheese? No effin way is that staying overnight. None.
If its jump around and slap your granny good - I have to have small portions (make a small portion) or none all too.
*shrug* Maybe some day it will be different! But today, this keeps me safe!
*do you think I went over my daily word allowance? :}
Blarg. This is me, wishing I did not know what you meant about super delicious foods. Where your belly gets finished before your mouth is. Those things I cannot have here at home either. If I have them at a restaurant, I have to have some until I think "just one more bite" and then I douse that crap in more pepper than I could ever care to dig through and cover it with a napkin.
Theory - nobody ever was GLAD for that "just one bite" Plenty of people show up here and ***** about it, that's the scenario I play out until the end when I think that. And I think about me spending the rest of the evening in the bathroom, sliming over the toilet.
I have never slimed over food (once over some chewable vitamin C on an empty stomach and lay down too fast, but never food) but I sure doan wanna.
And I do know what you mean about there being grey foods.
Nuts I cannot have as a regular fare. There are never enough for my mouth. Forget about puddings, the texture of them and yogurt make me obsessive and want to eat them until they are not in the house anymore. I cannot even have a container of ricotta cheese here, because I keep thinking "what could I do with that NOW!!? ?" Used to be every time I go grocery shopping, when I go over to the yogurt section to pick them up for fella, I stare lustily at the Kozy Shak Tapioca pudding and have this conversation.
T - "Maybe you could, just this once. You could maybe tolerate it now, B. You are better than you were before, you would not have to suck it down out of the container and it would be gone before you got (the 7 miles) home"
M - Yea. Right. And pigs might fly right out of my ass, right here at the Kroger, Trix.
T - "but B!! Maybe! Some things you *are* better with!!"
M - Okay Trix - think with me. I am going to open it.
T - "Yea! "
M - And then I am either going to be superdee pleased that its thick gooberdy puddin in there or, I am going to be kind of bummed that its watery pudding
T - "Yea"
M - And then, its not going to matter if its yummy and goobledy or nasty and runny, I am going to eat a serving anyway.
T - YEA!
M - And its going to be superdee great in my mouth.
T - YES M'AM!!
M - And then I am going to put it away, but I will not be able to do anything or think about anything single mindedly until its gone. Right?
T - well.
M - RIGHT?
T - Yea.
M - And then I will eat it gone, even if that means having to get up at 1 in the morning and eat that **** gone, because I will not be able to sleep because I have some insane obsession about it, just like before, right?
T - Yea.
M = And then - its going to be morning, light of day, sun shiney and bright. And how am I going to feel?
T Crappy.
M Just crappy?
T No. Crappy and lethargic. And then you are going to wanna start to snack fella's yogurts, and then his cereal, which is going to give you the superhuman farts.
M And what then Trix.. What then about every time I pass this freaking store?
T You are going to think about this pudding.
M That's right. And I have mo betta things to do, than obsess about this stupid pudding that is going to be gone in an hour MAX that I am going to waste at least a day obsessing about if I try and pretend that 1 serving will be enough. One whole day for a 4 dollar tub of tapioca pudding AND huge chunks of sanity AND days after that getting the monkey back off my back? And then having broken my promise to me that the foods THAT I USED HEAVILY TO GET FAT ON are foods I am buying in my regular grocery stuff? Are you ****ting me?
T Well. It *would* be delicious.
M Yes. It would. And it will STILL be delicious the next time we have some sort of function that it will be appropriate to bring pudding for and I remember. Maybe spring fling. Okay? Lets block it in for Spring Fling every year and we are not having this conversation.
Trix got tired of this conversation ending the same, and so now she looks at the pudding and says Heeey! See ya spring fling! Whoot! and leaves me the hell alone about it.
Cheese? If I have a block, I will obsess about it until its gone, slices? Not so much babybells? Gotta eat em. Cream cheese? No effin way is that staying overnight. None.
If its jump around and slap your granny good - I have to have small portions (make a small portion) or none all too.
*shrug* Maybe some day it will be different! But today, this keeps me safe!
*do you think I went over my daily word allowance? :}
if I have a good tasting steak, say, I do want to keep eating. past when I am no longer hungry, when I am full, maybe even when I was way too full.
and I also want to go back and keep eating in a little while when the steak "goes down" a little.
but, not nearly as much so as the buttered/salted baked potato!
I think your remark about boring is interesting: sometimes it works for me. I have a routine, I can do it fast without thinking no problem
and sometimes it works against me - OMG not that same thing again, wait aren't I going to be driving right past Taco Town in a few minutes?
and I also want to go back and keep eating in a little while when the steak "goes down" a little.
but, not nearly as much so as the buttered/salted baked potato!
I think your remark about boring is interesting: sometimes it works for me. I have a routine, I can do it fast without thinking no problem
and sometimes it works against me - OMG not that same thing again, wait aren't I going to be driving right past Taco Town in a few minutes?
once upon a time I had a group to talk about Binge Eating Disorder, and later one about Clean Eating.
PM me if you are interested in either of these.
size 8, life is great
Fella sure has a lot of sugary carby stuff here too, but its off limits for me, because if I start, I will not stop.
But luckily, even a whiff of someone being a saboteur really HONKS HIM OFF! So I do not have to worry about him bringing home things that would be for us both, that would be way too tempting for me, and more than just a Single serve. Yaay!!
But luckily, even a whiff of someone being a saboteur really HONKS HIM OFF! So I do not have to worry about him bringing home things that would be for us both, that would be way too tempting for me, and more than just a Single serve. Yaay!!
fun, interesting post & makes me think.
I was all set to help you with your laundry soap problem. you know, that might have actually indicated some sort of mineral deficiency.
meanwhile, whirled peas indeed! groovy, I'm visualizing right now!
I was all set to help you with your laundry soap problem. you know, that might have actually indicated some sort of mineral deficiency.
meanwhile, whirled peas indeed! groovy, I'm visualizing right now!
once upon a time I had a group to talk about Binge Eating Disorder, and later one about Clean Eating.
PM me if you are interested in either of these.
size 8, life is great
LOL you really had me going there. I thought WTF, she is eating soap now, what do we do about this??!!! But you make an important point in a very clever way as usual. I swear you need to write a book of Brandylyn's lifes lessons.
Regarding whirled peas, there is some one in our town with xmas lights that spell out PEACE but some are burnt out or obstructed so it spells out PEAS complete with snowflakes and other christmas stuff. very visible from the 101. so hilarious.
as they say in church, peas be with you.
Diane
Regarding whirled peas, there is some one in our town with xmas lights that spell out PEACE but some are burnt out or obstructed so it spells out PEAS complete with snowflakes and other christmas stuff. very visible from the 101. so hilarious.
as they say in church, peas be with you.
Diane
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