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X-Post: Lovin' My Scales (kinda long)

NanaDebby65
on 2/5/11 9:43 am - North Richland Hills, TX
I posted this on the VSG Board and thought I would share with the maintenance group! I have had some positive responses on it as it's not a subject that has really been brought up. I used to be very active on the boards but once I started the maintenance phase I was completely lost and was not in a good place. I didnt post as much and was almost resentful of the people who were losing weight.

I value each one of my OH friends and since I'm in a much better place I'm hoping you guys will not mind if I join in on some of the discussions here on the maintenance board .

Below is my post:

I have been a daily weigher since day one and will probably always be. I cant tell you how many times I was disappointed with the flucuations. Seems like I would hit a new low number then bounce back up several pounds for a couple of weeks then I would be doing a happy dance when I would see a new low number appear again. Then I would bounce back up again for several weeks before hit another new low number. You get the picture. It was sooo frustrating yet I kept weighing every day.

I finally reached my goal in November (138 lbs) and it really freaked me out. Did I lose too much? Do I look too thin (like some people say)? What was I going to do? This is it?? I LIKED seeing a new low number ever once in awhile. I really became kinda depressed knowing I was done. I really backed off posting on the boards because I wasnt in a very positive/happy place at that point. I was happy to see other people losing weight but I HATED that it was not me!!

Now I'm in a better/more positive place so I continue on my journey in maintenance. I've been as low as 132.4 but my body seems to like 136-138. Absolutely no complaints about that because I NEVER dreamed I would be this weight again!!

Now when I step on those scales daily I am amazed by how much I weigh. It makes me smile  because I havent weighed this much (or little) since high school. Yea I'm still a little bummed about not seeing that new low number but I am in such a better mental place right now.

I  my sleeve & my scales!!

Debby
HW: 228/GW: 140/CW: 134    
ThinLizzy
on 2/5/11 10:20 am
Hi, Debby!

Welcome! I can relate, even 3 1/2 years out. I LOVED seeing the numbers go down and it was a bit depressing to have it end--I kind of didn't know what to do with myself! However, now I'm trying to lose 5 lbs. I put on over the holidays, so I get to see the scale down again, lol. For me, I think I'm more "comfortable" when I need to lose weight, even if it's only a pound or two because it's such familiar territory...

Lizanne



(deactivated member)
on 2/5/11 9:43 pm
Ditto...

On the flip side, when I was heavy, I refused to get on the scale since I knew the numbers were going up.

For me, the daily accountability is working and gets easier with time (less emotional reaction to what the scale says...getting more clinical).

Love, love, love my sleeve...
Julie2010
on 2/6/11 1:07 am
I absolutely understand. 

I am having a hard time being content with the super amazing number I really never thought I'd see.. That's craziness!!! Isn't it???

I am a scale addict, and I am trying really hard to not let it rule my emotions.  Inevitability it seems that I'm only really happy if I can get a new low out of it, or at the minimum stay the same by the end of the day.

You know, writing this out makes me feel like I'm a bit of a nut.  Maybe that's good.  Maybe writing this out and looking at it differently from my inside self justification is what I need.

What I need is some confidence.  Walmart usually does that... don't you guys feel a little bit better after going to Walmart? We have one Walmart on the south side of town that is straight out of the "People of Walmart" picture/emails.

It is hard once maintenance begins.  I like the poster above that said she was trying to look at the scale in a more "clinical" perspective. I need to do that.  I am also having a harder time with self control... I've been indulging way to much. 

I guess for me I never want to forget where I came from.  I've had people tell me to change my avatar...but that's me...that's exactly how I felt when I signed up with OH. I've come a long way, with hard work and determination.  Now it's time for acceptance and kindness....which sounds easy in theory, but after so many years of self sabotage it does take time, especially after an amazing year of some seriously dramatic change!

Anyway, thanks for the real, honest and postive post!




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