I think I've been blocked!

I think a member of our group that I actually have great respect for blocked me!  It is a very surreal feeling.  I simply can't see her posts and I guess she can't see mine.  I really don't know why she blocked me as I don't ever remember speaking to her directly, but maybe I just don't remember.  It would not bother me so much except I think she has great wisdom and a great deal to share with our community.  There is a part of me that immediately wonders what is wrong with me as a person that she would feel the need to remove me from her world.  Then of course there is a healthier part of me that realizes that there she has her own reasons and they may not even have much to do with me.  And yet it is still a wonder to me and I must admit to feeling rather odd about it. I saw that she posted on a different thread and I kept going back to it over and over trying to see what she said thinking there was something weird going on with the site or with my computer.  It really never occurred to me that she would block me, like the thought seemed too bizarre.  The truth is that rejection sucks especially when you have respect for the person and now need to evaluate what prompted such an extreme response.  I still wish her much success and I only wish  had some explanation.  It surprised me that I feel so vulnerable about it.  I really thought I had tougher skin.

Elina, if you've been blocked, I bet it was in error--a misclick on your name or something. No one would block you!

Lizanne

Lianne, thank you.  I never even considered that it could be an accident.  My gut tells me it's not.  I asked Jen to talk to her gently and see what my great transgression was.  I think I know.  She blocked me after I posted about the Dr. Cirangle support group meeting.  I think it is all the rah rah Dr. Cirangle is awesome stuff that is ticking her off.  That's my guess anyway.  I can tell you it's going to be hard reading this board without knowing what she said.  :) 

Elina, she might have done it by accident. Would you like one of us to send her a message and check? I remember last year someone accidentally blocked 20 people by accident.

Ouch.  That could hurt.  :)  Jen, my gut tells me she meant it.  But it could just be my childhood demons talking.  I'll send you her name and maybe you can gently check.  I didn't include her name in the thread because she has every right to not want my presence in her life and maybe not having me there somehow improves her OH experience.  Either way, I can already see I am way to sensitive and need to develop a tougher skin to stay on the Internet. Do you know where I can purchase one cheap?  :)

I just sent her a message, hopefully it was just a misunderstanding, I'll let you know if she writes back. She is full of good advice so it would be a bummer not to be able to see her posts.

It was not an accident.  I was assy towards you and until I could come up with a sincere apology I blocked you to protect you from further assiness on my behalf.

And you are definitely right, my poor reaction to anything/anyone is not about them, but my poor reaction, and I own this.

But "its me, not you" never really was much of an apology for anything, ya know? 

Brandilynn, what assiness are you talking about, I think you are amazing, I have nothing but respect and awe at your wisdom.  I have some of your posts on my refrigerator so my whole family can partake of your knowledge.  Whatever I did to hurt you was not intentional in any way.  If it makes your world better to not have me it it, so be it.  I will not protest.  It just shocked me and I felt a bit winded from it but that is my own insecurities.  There is definitely a lesson in this for me, I just haven't totally figured it out yet.  I am working on it though, really I am.  You should know no matter what you decide to do, I have learned a tremendous amount from you already and I appreciate having you here for myself and for the rest of us. Thank you for responding and not just leaving me hanging.

You didnt hurt me.  My response was my own and it was in a fit of ******ess. 

There is no need to figure anything out.  You (we, all of us) are exactly who we are and who we ought to be right this very minute.  My fit of ******ess ought not have any bearing on you, and it was a lesson to me that on the interwebs, as in real life, if I am going to be snarky, I need to remove myself from the situation.  All of that is absolutely on me. 

You follow your heart and your encourage people and you share what you know.  This is a good thing.  You are sincere in your share.  That is all anyone could ask of anyone else, any time, or any place!

 
This terrifies me !!!!!!!!

Two of my fav girls..........

Lets "Hug" with me in the middle of course ! (yah... and than I woke up)


Now if someone can get Mandyplus2 to un block me...... I guess I pissed her off when I was fighting with Misseye about a year ago....... I would send her an apology if given the chance.

frisco