I call Bull****!!! I am full of the stuff! I'm pulling my head out of the sand!

Cindy

it sounds like you have done extremely well, all the way around.

I am at 2 1/2 years out and have been at goal for a long time but I still feel like under 3 years - heck, maybe even 5 years - is not very far out.

it's just such a major reboot!   I like what you have to say, though, and maybe your mind is all caught up!  mine might not be, however.

hugs
Jackie

I can really relate to a majority of your post.....actually brought tears to my eyes.  I just wanted to let you know that the 5 lb thing over Christmas - happened to me.  Being disappointed in my sagging thighs and belly - same with me.  Financially not being able to really afford PS...same here. I have wrestled with these issues since right after Christmas, and have at least come to the conclusion that I am going to lose the 5 lbs and go down a little further even.  Just do it!  That is nothing...nothing! -  compared to what we have had to lose in the past..or that is how I am choosing to look at.  Remember when you looked in the mirror and knew that there was 100 lbs or more to lose....how devastating and overwhelming that 100 lbs looked.....so 10 lbs is easy compared to that!  I know excercise is a good and healthy thing to do......so I am going to do it...But, I used to wish when I was obese "if only I could climb a rock wall, bungee jump, go kayaking, take a survivalist, bellydancing, scuba diving, etc, class?  What is holding me back now from that?  So I don't have enough money to do PS...I do have enough to start one of those things....in other words...start living the life and doing the activities I always wished for when I was overweight!  Is there anything you wanted to do before wls, that you could do now?  Start having fun with the new lighter body?  That is what I am choosing to do, and I have purchased an inflatable kayak so I can start that as soon as spring hits.......Maybe you have started something like that, but there is always more to do and experience......And, maybe it won't matter so much any more that thighs and belly are wrinkled and sagging.....because you are having too much fun living your life!  Hope you are feeling better about things, and thanks for your sharing..always good to know that others are rowing along in the same boat!  HUGS to you!

Hi Sweetheart,

Sorry I made you tear up, amazing how we can relate sometimes eh?

With my thighs and belly it is not so much sagging as protruding...  grrrr VERY stubborn areas.

I really need to get back on track, I am way off, and it scares the heck out of me.  I have not gained more than the 5 lbs from Christmas, BUT I have not lost those 5 lbs either.  I said I would NEVER do this!!!  It's scares the heck out of me...  why can't I behave and get back in control?

I love your ideas for exercise, go for it honey, sounds like you would have a blast!!  Have fun in that inflatable kayak!!  I live in paradise, there are Kayaks availalbe everywhere, why didn't I think of that!  I could Kayak around the island for goodness sake.

Big hugs to you also, and thank you!

Cindy

I relate to so much of what you wrote. I feel like I live on a rollercoaster sometimes. And I built it, and I hate it, and I don't know how to tear it down. We will both never be perfect and it stinks doesn't it? I wanted to fix my little imperfections surgically as well, but walked away when I realized that fixing those problems would only magnify the others that I can't fix. I am battling problems with wanting to lose a lot more weight lately... And have found myself simply not eating. Not good. I am also afraid my marriage is on its last leg but that's my own fault and for another post..

Anyway, enough rambling.. I think you should lose the five pounds. I think as long as you are healthy you should be at a weight you are most comfortable at, and damn anyone elses opinion. Read the books.. Exercise.. And keep coming here to vent safely to friends.

Hi Beautiful!

Thanks for chiming in!  Ya it does stink that we will never be perfect, I thought if I put enough effort in, it would be my reward, it only seemed fair.  Grow up woman, what is wrong with me!?

I understand if you want to lose more weight and are staying in a healthy range.  But honey, please do it in a healthy and controlled fashion.  Don't hurt that beautiful body or spirit please.  Look after your temple, don't starve it, or deprive it, give it the nutrition it deserves.  I hate to think you are not eating... you are right NOT GOOD.  YOU know just how to lose the weight, YOU have all the tools to do it in a healthy way, please be good to yourself honey...  big hugs...

Sorry about your marriage my dear, you mention it may be your fault.  All I can say is it sound like you are going down a bit of a destructive path.  You are a strong, independant, beautiful woman.  You are capable of almost anything.  You are this beautiful unique ray of sunshine, I just love your posts, your look and your *****  Don't give in to self distructive behavious.  Do what YOU want to do, and what is best for YOU... whatever that may be.  But do it as an adult, and don't hurt yourself in the process... 

I know I am way out of line, but I care about you sweet Fawn, and I don't want to see you hurt or doing any permanent damage to your health or life.   Hang in their honey... take a step back and look at where you are and where you want to be... then take the steps to get there.  You are stronger than you think.  It is ok to make changes in your lfe, it is ok to realize you are not where you want to be, and it if ok to go for what you want.

You are not rambling and I don't see this thread as 'mine', if someone can relate they should speak up so we can all throw our 2 cents in :)

I will lose the 5 lbs, not sure why I am not focused enough to do it right now...  I will go where I damn well please, cause I can...  :)  Just kidding, pretending I am YOU..  lol

Big hugs and take extra special care of your beautiful self...

Cindy

This thread makes me think of an interview I read of Chrissie Wellington. It's all about her body and how she loves it because of what it can do even though it's not perfect.

But what I took away from the article is not that she loves her body, but that it's not perfect. If her body isn't perfect, then no one's body is perfect. And, for some reason, that makes me feel better!

http://www.guardian.co.uk/sport/2011/jan/02/chrissie-wellington-interview-iron-lady

Btw, I've read interviews with supermodels and they don't think their bodies are perfect either. Of course, regular people read that and think "Your body is amazing. Why can't you be happy with it?" I used to think that, too. But now I get it.

My goal is to be like Chrissie. To be objective about my body and its flaws but to love it anyway, just like I love my kids even though they aren't perfect, either.

Hi Mac,

I read it and its a great article...  wow what a powerhouse eh?  I LOVE her smile, her whole face lights up!

hhmmmm maybe you are on to something... even the people with the most 'perfect' bodies, don't think their bodies are perfect!!!  Wow, what a concept.  I love it.  So if I realize this, and accept this, it sure would take the pressure off.  I am not perfect and my head will never think I am, so why strive for it... OMG I get it. 

I can still work towards my best, but accepting I will never be perfect, makes the process more pleasant, and something I can attain, not the perfection, just the less than perfect.  I can do that, in fact I am almost there, I almost have my "imperfect' body.  I am so frickin' close to have the best "imperfect' body that I personally can attain...  OMG can you hear me, I got it!  I get it...

I am thrilled, I am not sure I am expressing myself correclty, but I just had an aha moment... and thank you for that!!  I love my body in all of it's imperfect way.  I love what my body has allowed me to do to it.  I love my body and the fact that it and I have done almost everything, except exercise and 5 lbs, that we can do to make it the best it 'personally' can be.  We are not done, and I look forward to working with my 'imperfect' body to attain another level of imperfection... we can take it up a knotch, but not stive for the unobtainable, just strive for a little better than where we are... not as a cop out, just setting a realistic goal...

Big hugs,

Cindy

AWWW Babe, HOW I HAVE MISSED YOU!!!(((HUGS)))

Heres the truth, we all stumble from time to time. NONE of us are perfect! We CANT try and please others, but only OURSELVES... and you know what? ITS OK to be selfish everynow and then!

You get to where YOU want to be love! I am actually kinna going through a similiar situation as you are.

You gotta do what is going to make you happy and no one else, you know WHY? Because you are the one who has to live not only WITH you for your entire life, but your the one who has be be able to accept and love you as well, more so than anyone else in this world!

I was comfy between 102lbs and 109lbs. Right now, no lie... I'm up to 130lbs.... EVERYONE loves how i have gained (20lbs in 2 friggin months!) and says they love me best at this size... but GUESS WHAT?? I  DONT! This journey is about me and my son NO ONE ELSE!

I cant tell you what you need to do, but try to do what makes you happy love!!

xoxoxo
Jessie

Well Hello There Beautiful!

Always so good to see you!

Ok, I am slowly getting it, and it sounds like you are also.  As long as we are healthy and in the normal BMI range, we should be able to go where we are comfortable... wherever that may be.

I wish you lots of luck getting to your 'favourite' weight...

My plan is to lose the 5 lbs or maybe 8 lbs I gained, then do some weight training... with the added weight of the muscle I want to be sure I stay in the 140's... I know it is only a number, but it is my number :)

There is no gym here, and we live in a cabin on the beach, that is only 12'x24'... so I am not sure how I am going to do this... but where there is a will there is a way right?

I want to buy a home gym, have it shipped down, and either find a way to put a small extension on the cabin, or close in an area under the cabin, or put it at a friends house... either way, I am bound and determined to do something about these thighs and this belly :)

Wish me luck!

Big hugs,

Cindy