I have Binge Eating Disorder

 Yes, yes, yes, this is me.  I too, have a binge eating disorder.  In fact, i used to think i was just fat and ate a lot but now i know that i have a disorder...for real.  I was able to maintain my weight at goal for 2 yrs and then started to return to old ways of behaving.  At first, it was slow and then it became steady.  Know what i mean?  

I became very frightened when i realized i was returning to my old ways of thinking and behaving.  I obsessed over what the scale would say and show.  I wrote on the VSG board a number of times about what was happening and the really crazy thing was that i was not really GAINING weight.  I remained below my goal weight and still am.  But, i knew what was happening.  I knew this was the old me.  I looked new but i behaved old.  

After a number of people on the VSG board suggested (and after many thoughts in this direction anyway), i went to see a therapist with an expertise in eating disorders.  I see her once/week and also see a dietician.  It has helped me in that she "corrects" my way to thinking and looking at the world and myself.  Anyway, she was the one who used the term:  "binge eating disorder" and all of a sudden it hit me that there WAS something wrong besides being a "slob".  I work on this everyday...some days r good and some not so good.  

Thank u so much for starting this thread.  It is so needed by so many of us.

I'm glad you a good therapist and please, please feel free to start your own threads about what you have learned there. I'm sure it would be very helpful to many. 

and the some good, some bad days sound pretty normal. 

Interesting thread.  I admit I have an eating disorder.  Since VSG I have not binged like before, but on a occasions I have had trouble stopping and only doby throwing the rest of the food out in the trash and dumping more trash on top.  I have anxiety eating issues that have improved with counseling, Welbutrin and some of my stressers coming under control.  I did well until I had too much to handle when my life started to implode.

I started struggling at 2 years out.  Until that time my life seemed in control.  I started grazing to dull the feelings.  I to am considering abstinance from white sugar and white flour as they seem to be a slippery slope for me as well.  My Psych and I have talked about it, but I am not ready to commit long term.  I may do a 30 day commitment and see how that feels. We just have to not give up and work at figuring out what to do.

 

 

My addictions are multiple - white flour/white sugar, and volume eating.  The sleeve has pretty much taken care of the volume issue (so far), but the choice about what to eat remains with me (the head surgery vs. stomach surgery).  So far so good. 

I find that if I eat refined sugar or flour, it sets me up to crave more, so I've committed to abstinence from them, one day at a time.  It doesn't have to be a 30-day commitment.  Sometimes it's just a 10-minute commitment.  What works a lot is, I tell myself that I can have the whatever-it-is after eating my main meal, which satisfies that immediate craving.  And then by the time the meal is finished, I no longer have the craving.  At least not for that 10-minute period, LOL.  This happens more at work or out-and-about, as I live alone (luckily, for this topic anyway) and can choose not to have it in the house.

never give up, that's for sure.

I have anxiety as well and I call it Depression's Evil Twin because I find it so much worse that my comfortable old depression is good by comparison. 

Progress, not perfection!

I have realized recently that I have BED also.

I've felt a binge coming on the past few days, and now I'm to the point where I can't stop eating this peanut butter (white chocolate peanut butter). I think about it all day long. I eat on thin rice cakes or straight out of the container. I think it's the sugar in it that spiraled me out of control. If I didn't have the sleeve, I'd be gorging myself on everything in sight right now.

I want to throw the peanut butter away, but I just WANT it so bad that I haven't been able to. I actually cried about it this morning. It just sucks.