Holding my own at the office holiday bakeoff........

So, I sit very close to what we refer to as the "buffet" where all the leftover goodies from our lunch and annual bakeoff are sitting. I've had NONE!  There really isn't anything I want that bad, but in my old life I would have grazed (JUST LIKE THESE FOLKS ARE) mindlessly on crap that I don't even appreciate.  Not anymore. 

This girl is a bonafide food snob.  I partake in treats, but they have to be "worth it."  I have to admit, the leftover yeast rolls from Texas Roadhouse are enticing, but I keep telling myself that the indulgences I have starting midweek next week for the holiday trip to South Carolina are worth so much more.  I know if I hold out, then I won't have so much "holiday" flub to lose. 

But, I can only admit this here, but I almost get pissy watching folks graze by--particulary the ones that DON'T NEED IT.  It's like I want to blurt out, "Really, your chubby butt is back over here for the fourth time now.  Really?"  Is that envy?  Pity? Crazy.........

I now know how pathetic my 300 pound self looked lumbering up to the "buffet" to get goodies. 

I feel better now.  And, having japanese and my rare indulgence in su****onight will make it all better.

You are doing a great job girlie.  I am a snack snob too, and knowing I have REAL SUPAGREAT things waiting for me makes passing up the inferior stuff easier than just thinking "no not ever no." 

About your feelings about the other folks, I try and if have weird feelings towards someone, I realize its probably me having weirdness about me - I would wonder if you were not saying those fussing things to the old you, now that you were the "know better" you?

Either way - good job anyway!!  You are doing a superfine job and I am proud on you! 

Thanks, Brandilynn!

It's always such an interesting case study when you evaluate your thoughts.  And, yes, you are probably right.  I like your idea of looking inward when those thoughts come up.  It's almost like I'm watching what I used to look like.  Blech!

I love obesityhelp.com and mostly my buddies here like you who make this journey so much easier.

Sushi...sushi...sushi......:-)

Turning them inward, not to torture me, just to poke around and see where they came from, tends to be incredibly showing for me. 

Kind of like the folks most against different folks (cultures, sexual orientation, et cetera) really just are kind of afraid of stuff they do not know.

About the watching the heavier folks, its just a chance to be gentle with your then self  :} 

It is nice to have such a varied group of folks. It helps to not just be only with folks exaclty like you  (your 'worm end' I call it, you know because mostly the worm ends look just alike). 

Helps us to grow and smooth out our edges!

I am glad you are going to get you some good su****onight! 

I feel everything getting stuffy and am thinking some cream of mushroom soup with a heaping helping of cayenne might just be what the doktor ordered!

Be sweet to you - especially on today your day of tense!

Muwah!

Holiday events really bring out interesting observations and thoughts in us "born again" eaters. Today I went to a club party where there was a cookie exchange. I took toasted cinnamon almonds made with brown sugar splenda (see recipie post) and they were a hit. I did eat a couple of bites of a sweet but i knew it was made with splenda by a diabetic person. And I just got told by dietician to up calories some as I am below goal (feeling smug thank you). Someone made a wonderful item that was segments of clementines or possibly mandarin oranges with a bit of mascarpone cheese on top slightly sweetened with splenda and topped with a bit of orange peel. It was heavenly.

But yeah, the whole season makes you notice obese people on their fouth trip to the cookie bar and my former self would have made at least that many. While those sweets look good and interesting, I just don't have as much trouble resisting them as before. Yesterday was a birthday at the studio and there was flourless chocolate decadence cake and I had about a teaspoon bite and it was delicious but that was enough and sleeve thought so too. Wine was more interesting than the cake.

I used to always observe what was in the cart of really fat people at the grocery store. Just curiosity. You'd think I would have looked at the carts of skinny people to learn what they dined on and to emulate them but no, not as interesting. Guess I just wanted some reinforcement or something.

So yeah, I guess I am a food snob too as there is all this stuff i just won't consider eating because I know how nasty it is. But truth be known, I just LOVE LOVE LOVE  not being fat anymore and its worth about anything to stay this way. Isnt it positively libetating to know you can pass up some formerly irrisistable things and genuinely look forward to a quality sushi dinner! Its agreat way to live. Congrats on your success and attitude. Diane

Im still a food lover but im definately picky, there is just so much stuff that does not interest me anymore ... sometimes i wi**** was more, but oh well ill just have to fight with my desert addiction lol.. (and its only some deserts...)

I have even got that way with restaurants if i dont like the food i dont go back, where as before surgery i would put up with a lot more, now if the food is slightly bland, i get served dry meat, burnt meat, i wont go back LOL.

but im proud of you for being so close to food and not being tempted im more out of sight out of mind...

Survived!  And, the sushi was fabulous.  Up a pound today from that darn soy sauce--even low sodium.....

And, I only had my breakfast taco fixings with 1/2 a corn tortilla for breakfast even though my Specialist Team put together a breakfast this morning loaded with cinnamon rolls, danish and big ol' flour tortillas.

Nope...that biscuit at the Loveless Cafe and eggnog for days on end next week are gonna be worth it!

HA!