ok im not normal im an addict

i had two pieces of pie tonight, even tho it was made with sugar free cheesecake pudding mix, and lite cool whip, with blue berries in a fat free gram cracker crust....     

Admittedly i did not eat them both at the same time one piece completely fulled me for an hour or so but i couldnt just walk away like i can with other things...

so i must constantly remind myself im not normal, ill never be normal... i can limit the damage by making it healthier, but i am always going to be an addict.

I hear ya on this one.  Something Ms. Shell posted about making peace about NOT being normal really hit me tonight.  She is so right.

None of us are normal.  If we were, we would not have needed WLS. 

But I feel kinda relieved.  I have to watch what I eat and severely limit carbs for the rest of my life.  It is just who I am and it is the way I have to eat.

Starting this moment, I just have to make peace with that and get on with the business of living.

Addicted to PIe..............

Sounds so bad............

Sounds so good !!!!

frisco

Thank you for this post.  I just downed a Snicker's& Hershey Bar.  Yes, they were Fun Sized so not "that" bad, but it was unplanned and as a reaction to stress, not hunger.

Thankfully, I have you other Addicts to rely on.

I'm not normal either...

Had fight with hubby yesterday, went out for a short walk... straight to the store, got the larger bag of Peanut M&M's and proceeded to eat it...

First bite I actually sighed out loud, enjoyed about 10-15 of them, then ate them mindlessly, and the last 1/4 of the bag started to feel too full and sick, ate them anyway... what is wrong with me!!  Had to lie down when I got home and missed lunch because of the binge...

I can't continue to do this...  whether it is the fight, my TOM, my withdrawal from being on meds I just got off of... whatever, I need to stop the madness...

Why can't I got out and grab a fresh banana or mango, or shrimp on a stick??  They all sound delicous to me now??  Why the chocolate!  Why the diet coke?  I sigh with pleasure when I drink that also...

You know what is weird and I just realized it, before I would have a list as long as my arm of comfort foods, go to foods... I just realized I now only have 2...  M&M's and diet coke.... hmmmm wonder why that is...

Anyway I am babbleing...

We are not normal...

face it. none of us are normal. we are all addicts in recovery. but what a great recovery tool we have. so the two pieces of pie won't do much damage and it sounds like low cal pie anyway. i am having my evening treat - a sugar free pudding with a couple of spoons of choc protein powder mixed in. a year ago i wouldn't have believed i would enjoy such glop. or that i would consider it a carb pig out that i ate a banana today but forgot to eat my tuna cup for  lunch. but when tempted to have a pity party for having to struggle with obesity i remind myself that there are lots worse diseases i could have. so thankful for my sleeve. D

Some stuff has extra pull.  Recognizing what is true about you is a GOOD THING!! 

Its only a bad thing when you are still ostriching and pretending you are something you are not.. or you are basing your worth on your weakness.

Neither of which is you! 

Very few folks are normal in all of the ways.. we all have our special bents towards and from things.

Some of us wear our bents on our sleeves - and most folks do not have the balls to be transparent.

Join me!

Its not a good thing, or a bad thing, its just the way I am!  :}

"I resemble that remark," as a friend used to say :-)

"Hi, I'm Dorothy, and I am a compulsive overeater and a food addict."  And I'm not in recovery now, either.  I've been bingeing my brains out for a couple of weeks and am up to *154*, a number that a couple of years ago would have been a blessing.  Now it scares the spit out of me.  Thanks, mini, for posting....
--Dorothy

Same here. I had the VSG so I could eat more like a normal person, but that doesn't mean that I AM a normal person when it comes to food.

I will always be a "fatty" (from my other thread), I just have it under control...FOR NOW. I know that anytime I can "relapse" and be that fat girl again. It really is not much different than an alcoholic who has their drinking under control. Every single day there is the potential risk to revert back unhealthy eating. One day at a time, right? = )

See?  This is why I love this group!  No where else do I FEEL "normal" like I do here!