FB Clone - Sugar Shock/Dumping - Cravings Why, Why, Why?

This was posted by Donna on our facebook page.  Just moving it over here too for those of you who are not on facebook. 

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Am I having mental issues or what!? Old habits die hard. I keep wanting, craving sugar, ice cream, etc. Yet I know when I eat them I'm going to be sick from them. They don't even taste as good to me as they did a year ago before my RNY surgery! Yet I did it again l...ate yesterday. After swimming a mile I came home, had my protein shake - then went on to have a piece of angel food cake with chocolate mint soy ice cream - yep even the soy ice cream did me in again for the second time. Less than 20 minutes after eating it I was flushed, burning up, felt puky, heart was racing, stomache cramping, and felt like I was going to croak - finally fell asleep for about 2 hours and woke up feeling a little better after expelling a lot of very toxic gas! I know gross subject - but true. My problem is I know this is going to happen, but it doesn't stop me from doing it! This is even the reason I had the RNY surgery because I knew sugar was an "addiction" for me. How do you overcome this problem? Any suggestions? In a way it seems like I'm punishing myself? Does this make any sense at all? Anyone else have this problem? Then to top that off, I've found myself going on more spending spree's to avoid the food binging? That's not healthy either! Then I end up returning items I really didn't need in the first place! Don't get me wrong, I'm still very happy that I had my RNY surgery and being able to fit in a size 10 is amazing and I hope to get even smaller. I love not wearing size 24/26's any more. I'm about 9 months out from having my surgery and have discovered this new me trip is much more of a "head" trip than I ever expected. If anyone else is having this problem - it may be an excellent topic for one of our face to face meetings and also beneficial for those that are looking into having surgery. Does anyone know of a good book that deals with the mental adjustment of weight loss surgery? Or of a good therapist that deals with this issue? Thank you, Donna