Anxiety of waiting

I can access this message board from work because its technically a "group" where the Onatrio message board is considered a "forum" and the firewall gets it.

Isn't that ridiculous??

Anyways....

Sometimes I have a hard time reading about anything happening in Ottawa. I am waiting for surgery and the anxiety of waiting just seems to be worse when I start seeing the posts about people in Ottawa getting their dates and appointments....especially people who started after me.
I try to be patient but its hard sometimes  

I guess its that crazy feeling of...by the time they get to me, something will happen and it will be closed, shut down or something or else the sign will go up across the door saying, "We're all full!! Go home!"

I know I know...I'm a crazy person.