Mixed Emotions

As I sit here and read about how excited ppl are waiting for their surgery, I can't help but not feel that excitement.  I have such an array of feelings.  I'm scared, happy, sad, elated, terrified, apprehensive, anxious, and more emotions that I can't explain.  Am I alone? 

You are definitely not alone.  I have aflood of emotions.  I'm excited about the journey and finally losing the weight and feeling better but also scared, and worried about how I will adapt to not being able to eat so much.  I like food, I like to it... obviously.  So many emotions which, from what I'm told, is very normal.

No you are not alone at all. I feel all of those things too. But for over a year I have been obsessively researching WLS and I know that for me this is the right choice. That doesnt mean Im not scared, it just means that I am looking further down the road and the way Im going without WLS is not good. We all have a different story and different reasons for doing what we are doing. I just know that for me personally the idea of being free from this fat is exciting! Please feel free to express all of your fears and anxiety here. We are all going thru the same experience.

This is how I am feeling, before I was just plain excited. Now that I'm two days away, I am so so very scared. I know why I'm doing this and am glad for it, but mentally preparing for the change when it's suddenly here is hard. I've been waiting to do this since March, I've been preparing myself for months but I think nerves are just taking over now. They're taking over so much, I've been getting the feeling of "nesting" and want to just clean and organize. It's so strange or maybe it's just what I do to cope with high anxiety.

You are most definitely not alone. =)

Oh HELL no!  I have been working at this full tilt boogie for a year.  I've worked hard, changed my eating and drinking habits, started and continued exercising, and lost some, but still have a long way to go.  I know I can't do it on my own.  I am so scared to cut my perfectly functioning stomach, but I know my surgeon is skilled and compassionate.  I think right now I'm so scared of the immediate aftermath that I can't feel what life will be like in six months, healed, eating small amounts, and consistently losing. 

It's hard to imagine being excited about IVs, anesthesia and surgery! 

While being three hours away from my surgeon's office sucks, I do have a friend here in town who is also sleeved, a monthly local support group, and my OH sleeve sisters and brothers.

Wishing you, me and all of us smooth sailing through surgery and a successful recovery! 

I'm right there with you all. I had my pre-op appt and was doing fine. Started getting a little nervous. Went to take care of my grandma (she's at in-home hospice and I take care of her in the afternoons). By the time I left her I was a complete wreck. Geesh - I bawled all the way home.

What if...
What if...

Most of the "what if's" had to do with getting sick down the road (yuh think that might be connected to caretaking for my grandma maybe?

I got home and talked to the hubby. "What if I get sick and wish I had my tummy back?"

He just looked at me that wonderful way that makes me want to go shove my head in the ground and said "Well...I thought the surgery was supposed to take AWAY most of the that. Isn't it supposed to make you healthier?"

God I love that man!!!!

Believe me, I'm a full mix of emotions!!!  My boyfriend even asked me this morning if I was going to back out of the surgery!  NO WAY am I backing out but I'm still a mix of emotions.

I think it's completely normal to be nervous about the surgery itself.  We all pick our surgeons with care and I'm sure we all have the utmost confidence in them but still....

I'm also nervouse about the live change that I'm making.  After this surgery I'll never eat the way I have for my entire life up to this point.  That is a GOOD thing but it's still a big change.

I keep going back to the reasons why I'm doing this and I'm still excited to start a new chapter in my life.

Sooooooooo long story short, no you are not alone!!!  :)