I can't believe it's already June 3rd. I had my surgery on May 25th. I feel so much better
since that first day I came home. Not 100% that's for sure, but i'm getting there.
Except I had this horrid headache today, decided to take a nap to get it to go away. It
did work except I slept from 3-7pm. Wonder if I will be able to sleep tonight?
Since I felt guilty for sleeping so long, I did my duty and put my shoes on and me an the
dog took a walk down the street. We were able to go 2 blks and then come back. I'm not
sure if that's good or not. But I sweated! An felt a good accomplishment.

Sorry I missed last night, but I was reading this awesome book. LOL

Ok today has been an extremly long long day. An I am very tired. But since
i didn't tell you guys anything yesterday, I thought I best get on here and tell you
something today. 

Well it started off  I got to get new things at the store today, I was totally excited.
Imagine a 48 year old woman excited about Vegetarian Vegetable soup. I only ate 4oz of
it. But it was darn tootin good!  An I was full after eating it.

Of course I did buy all kinds of soups,  like cream of mushroom and potatoe, and hmm I did
forget the tomato. Oh well. I got cream of wheat, and Crystal light makes a hard candy NO Sugar, 25
calories. An I might add very tasty.  Fudgesicles no sugar, enjoyed every bit of it. But it's really hard to
figure out how to get all this food into me. I still not grasping all this, and what's weird I ate so much
more before.

Went to the doctor today, My personal doctor. I have an infection in my incision sites, and he's not sure if
it was from the surgical tape or what, because I was highly allergic to it. So I'm on 500 mgs of antibiotics.
Which I might add tastes nasty even in JUICE. Blech!!  He's also worried about my right leg, sometimes a
body part which isn't use to being in one position for a long time, like during surgery can cause some issues
on nerves, usually goes away, but it's affecting my sciatica, but.. Doc also said, that when the weight comes off
then that will help too. I have to go back on my coumadin, which I don't want too, but the sooner the weight comes off the faster I get off that pill which I've been on for 22 years.

Other than that he told me to start walking, which I did walked 1/2 way up the street, and back, and even took the dog, but she's very obedient and doesn't pull. So she is getting her excercise and so am I. Well I got to go it's starting to storm
Night

This is the last day of May. I want to say Thank You to all the Men and Women in Uniform! An God Bless You!

Today, I'm stronger. I live with my mom, an for some of you that's a challenge in itself. It's not something I wanted
to do. I'm here because I have to be. But I also told my family, that nothing is permanent. Right now it's something
that I can do.

Being a caregiver is harder than being the patient. Especially for me since the patient can't remember anything. It gets OLD quickly.

Last night I broke down crying more than one time I might add. This is the 5th day since surgery. An I couldn't figure out why I was so emotional. I called my brother crying, saying I'm tired, I can't pick anything up. An she just sits on her computer and just doesn't offer to help at all.  I can't reach down and pick up anything. Luckily she has this thing looks like a long pistol with the grabber hand WORKS FOR ME 

Anyway, after calling I didn't feel much better, but went off and I remembered why. I take Paxil 20 mgs. The first 2 nights when I did the pill crushing I was wide awake from it. Luckily I have a friend who's pharmacist. She told me it wasn't from the pill. It was from the anxiety of coming home. OHHH, that makes sense I guess.  Even though pill crushing an putting them in juice is the most HORRIBLE, Nasty taste ever. I did it. I've already taken it for tonight.  Juice is the best. But it's done. An i'm not crying.

FIVE days, seems like alot, but I guess with major surgery 5 days doesn't really mean anything. Yes I have my voice back. My writing is still weak. I should say penmanship. That didn't look so hot.

Other than that, I move a little faster than a turtle.

Guess what? Tomorrow I go to chicken/turkey noodle soup, vegetarain vegetable, potatoe soup, tomato soup, cream of mushroom soup. An I can use 1/2 % of milk. I can buy non sugared fudgesicles, cream of wheat, and NO sugared ice cream. I'm excited!!! Oh I go back on my protein shakes, Which I have to admit I miss. Because they are awesome.  I have a huge container it's chocolate/marshmallow Sci-fit    $33.00 is what I pay. It's good, it's not off the charts, but it makes me feel ALIVE, happy,  3 times a day.

In 20 days, that's my pre-op and Post op. I haven't been to my first doctors appt yet. But I've lost 33 lbs.  I don't want to weigh myself in daily at home. I don't see it personally, the difference, but my family does. So I know it's coming off.

So this week, I have to schedule to see my favorite Primary Care physician, and get my first Vitamin B-12 shot. That should be interesting. Then I have to see my surgeon.  An I have to pick up my new foods and my new vitamins.  So sounds busy, but I get to LEAVE the HOUSE!! yeahhhhhh!!! 

God Bless

Well it's been a better day I think. My voice sounds stronger.
I'm more tired than normal.  Actually I'm very tired. An I'm going
to call it  a early night.
I still hurt all over. One nice thing was I found a new way to lay in bed.
Stupid I know, but when your belly  hurts you want to protect it, so you have to be
careful if you have a cat that likes to jump or a dog that likes to jump. Like my Collie
has had training, my cat who is part dog I've given up hope. So protection is they key,
blankets folded and put on you, pillows on top of you.
But to get back to my position, I laid on my back last night. WOOHOO! I woke up thinking
well this is too cool. But I want to roll to a new position, took some manuevering but I did it.
Other than that I'm ok. Hanging in there day by day. Wiggling my toes, going outside to watch
the birdies.
Will see what tomorrow brings. 

Each day looks better. Not as weak. But I'm not wanting to run
the mile either. I so wanted to put water in the bird bathe. An fill up
seeds for the birds. Well the first thing I did was put seed in for birds
then clean out the bird bath and then high tailed it over to my lawn
chair and sat there for 30 min. Sssh don't tell anyone. I was fine. I might
of done just a wee bit more than I should of. Honestly that's all I did, clean out
yuck in bird bathe and filled up only one bird feeder.
Then after I felt rested I went in and layed down some more. I'm trying to be good.
Then after I rested on the bed for a couple of hours I snuck back outside and took the
hose to my car. Some bird likes to leave purple DOO on my car. It did feel good to put the
hose water on my legs. An I might of watered some plants, and I might of filled the bird bath.
But I didn't do anything else and came in for the night after that.
See some people that I've met stated they had their surgery and as soon as they were released
they were walking and getting around. I'm lucky if i can move my body, without dying from pain.
This one gal said she went straight tot he gym. HELLO? I can't do that. I must be the only whimp
out there. I've lost 33 lbs in 17 days. That's nothing to sneeze at. I don't go to the doctor until 7-10 days.
I must be doing something right.