Starting out on the journey

Today 8/26/19 I am awaiting hearing back from my surgeon's office to get my surgery date. I am beyond excited, scared, sad, any and every emotion you can imagine! I want to have this surgery because I believe after a lifetime of dieting and going up and down the scale that it is truly what I need. I have lost over 100 pounds twice now. I am currently maintaining my most recent 100 pound weight loss more than 1 1/2 years but find myself battling the same 10 pounds over and over. I have at least another 100 pounds to lose.

One of the funny things I am amused by is the process we are put through prior to weight loss surgery which I will refer to as WLS so I don't have to type so much.The psychological evaluation they put you thru before they will approve you is suppose to screen and weed out people with eating disorders such as binge eating. I find this amusing because what person who doesn't have a eating disorder, like binge eating need this surgery. Obviously, just my opinion, if I could STOP myself from over eating I wouldn't need to have 2/3 of my stomach removed. I know I am addicted to food and I know I am a binge eater. I also know that having most of my stomach removed and being made very uncomfortable will most likely be my only saving grace. Yes I know after being in a 1 1/2 year long support group I will have to do the work to sustain my weight loss. I recognize that I will have to learn to control myself. That is key. I can not tell you how scared it makes me to see people REGAIN all their weight after putting themselves thru this surgery. I see it all the time. Is anyone else thinking some of the same thoughts?