new to the group and just feeling a little overwhelmed by everything

I'm new to the group and just wanting to know about all the mixed emotions that are in my head, I'm having gastric bypass for 2 reasons, 1. for gastroparesis and 2. for weight loss alot of tests and procedures that have kept me busy this past month but I understand the reasons why, I've been on liquids for along time now not able to eat food due to the gastroparesis so I'm kinda excited about this life change for me it's like I'm getting a second chance health wise so really here for the support and able to see thru other peoples testimonies. any suggestions greatly appreciated.

hey there!  i remember feeling some of what you describe (or eluded to) in your intro.  I was excited that i was on the cuspe of this life changing event, scared to death of all the things they have to tell you about that could go wrong, and i was also fighting that voice in my head yelling loudly that it was going to be like every other diet type thing and i would fail.  I went to conceling actually and learned how to tell the voice to shut up.  lol.  i know it sounds weird but my weight gain/loss/issues in general are tied to my head and the way i think and less to how my body works.  Now that's whats true for me, not everyone.  I have to constant treat my head, even almost 2 years out from surgery.  I have a feeling it will always be that way for me.  I have to remember to shut the committee in my head down when they get mean to me.  I have to replace it with new thoughts and ideas about myself and my capabilities.  I have to not only learn but USE new coping techniques.  It's a constant process for me.  It just really took off after surgery.  I know that if i stop using my new tools, i am at risk.  Educating myself really helped with those fears before surgery.  I researched my doctor and the hospital.  I got FACTS and stopped listening to either side of the street when people had motives.  lol.  I felt informed and impowered by the time i had surgery.  yes i was still nervous.  but i can tell you that i do not regret it for a moment.  I feel like i was reborn.  Not because of the weight loss.  But because i enjoy my life now and i am present in it instead of it just happening in spite of me being there.  lol.  Sounds to me like you have the same feelings i was having and I guess maybe that makes us normal?  I wish you well on your journey.  Hang in there!  Emotions came in huge waves for me at first, especially without the food to numb them.  talk to people and dont bottle it up.  people around here have been understanding and very nice.