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I am excited and scared. I am 1 wee****il my surgery. Well this past Tuesday, I cut my hair and donated my locks to lock of love. I will post a picture later. Every one loves it, it is with layers. I am going to California, so I thought it would be a good Summer/Winter cut, its to my chin.  I love my hair stylist she is excited for my change with me....

I cannot believe that my surgery is done and I am actually over it and feeling pretty darn good.  
I remember hanging out in the room with my parents before surgery, and then being wheeled into the surgery room.  The next thing I know I am in a large room about to be transported to my room.

I slept a lot the first night, but every time I got up to use the rest room I walked.  I never felt any pain just discomfort.  So that was great.  Not being able to breath deep bothered me a bit, but once the gas passed out of my upper body it was much better.

So today is my first full day at home, and I am tired and stir crazy.  I am ready for a nap, but also ready to get to doing something.   Probably will just take a nap lol.

I am worried about food intake.  I cannot tell if I am full or if I am uncomfortable from the surgery or if I over ate.  Completely confusing.  I am just realizing that I need to take this time to retrain my brain on portions and slowing down.

Sugar free pudding is my absolutely fav thing right now.  I was able to get in 28 oz of water yesterday, hoping for the 32 today with protein powder.

My internet was down for five days and I was going through withdrawal. So good to be back online.

Monday was my first post op visit to MD and I had such a gratifying day. My MD was impressed by how great I was doing with my meals, movements, healing, and my weight loss. Drum roll please..... I lost 22 lbs since surgery. I was so thrilled, i cried. The last time i had weight loss success was my weekly meeting at weight*********, and it was a 1.2 lbs. I began to feel lke this might actually work for me. I have turned the corner and now , LOOK OUT, world ,here I go.

This has been a difficult two weeks of recovery and experimentation with my diet and exercise. I had moments, thinking I had made a terrible decision because I didn't know if I could do this. We all have weak moments and I had several over the past week.

The most satisfying moment was not when I stepped on that scale in the MD office though. It was going out to lunch with my mom and sisters. They ordered their salads and grilled chicken breast sandwiches and such and I ordered a cup of soup broth. We talked and laughed throughout the meal and when they were finished eating, I still had 1/3 of my soup broth left and I wasn't feeling deprived or obsessed with what I had to eat in comparison to what they had. I actually had a meal and did not worry about what I should eat verses what I wanted to eat. I enjoyed their company and the meal was about the sharing the day with my family, not what i was eating. This is one of my biggest hurdles. I LOVE food and my world used to revolve around it. My goal is to learn how to love food, but not to have it rule my life.

I am starting to learn how to prioritize my life and food is becoming what I use to nourish my body, but my soul, spirit, personality, and character is what drives me.

I am keeping a journal of this weight loss journey. One of my entries was to write a letter to the "fat me" and then turn around and write a letter from the "fat me" to the "thin me " awaiting to come out. This was a great exercise. I said goodbye to the "fat Me" and forgave her for the pain we were going through due to the reckless behaviors. I am saying hello everyday to the thin ME , who is showing her face for the first time in years. This special luncheon was the first time the thin Kat had been seen in years.

Needless to say , my family has missed her and her spirit.

so happy for you!!!  scale victories are great too!  funny how you automatically reached for a size that was too big, my friend does that too, she is 18m out an she holds up things in her size and cant figure out how they will fit,  takes a whiel to catch up!! hope you had  alittle fun shopping!

This is GREAT news! Congratulations! You are doing so well, keep up the great work-you inspire me!