Fall 2011 Super Secret Clubhouse!
Death in my Family and didn't even use my Paxil
On Tuesday, I felt weird, just one of those weird days I geuss. As many of you know I work nights and I have my cell phone in the other room and shut it off. I woke up after my "Morning Nap" and have a call stating for me to call and he has some bad news. I was like OMGosh, what now, I was thinking OHH No, something happened to my Sister in Law who is in Afghan.
No, it was my Aunt Roseann, my Dad's oldest sister, she passed away while getting her 2nd cup of coffee. The last couple of years have been rough on her, she was due to get a pace maker put in her Dec. 14, 2011.
As many of you know, I went to California to have surgery, Yes I live in Anchorage, Alaska. I love my surgeon, he is my saving Grace for surgery.
Well, when I was in California, I go to see my Auntie, she was on oxygen and had one of the best smiles on her face, she was chipper and had words of wisdom and told stories about her other sister and my Dad when they were younger. She knew she was that sick, that didn't stop her.
I will be open and honest, I was diagnosed with depression and PTSD, every since having surgery, I have been barely on my Paxil, it's weird I feel happier about life and feel I don't need to take it. I did take one day off this week and my work was fine with me taking Friday off, so I had to get my self together. I am passed the denial stage, just havent cried and being happier, and going to see how long it takes me to not take Paxil, or just take it any way. I haven't taken my paxil since I heard of the bad news. I know my Depression, went out of whack and taking that day off helped.
Her Service is Next week, I am going to ask some one if they can call me while they have the service, I want to be there, just wan't to take the time off and get a ticket. I know she is not suffering with everything wrong that she had wrong, she is laughing and singing and watching down on me, as I write this.
I love and Miss you Auntie...... tell Mom I said HI, and give her kisses and hugs. Thanks.
No, it was my Aunt Roseann, my Dad's oldest sister, she passed away while getting her 2nd cup of coffee. The last couple of years have been rough on her, she was due to get a pace maker put in her Dec. 14, 2011.
As many of you know, I went to California to have surgery, Yes I live in Anchorage, Alaska. I love my surgeon, he is my saving Grace for surgery.
Well, when I was in California, I go to see my Auntie, she was on oxygen and had one of the best smiles on her face, she was chipper and had words of wisdom and told stories about her other sister and my Dad when they were younger. She knew she was that sick, that didn't stop her.
I will be open and honest, I was diagnosed with depression and PTSD, every since having surgery, I have been barely on my Paxil, it's weird I feel happier about life and feel I don't need to take it. I did take one day off this week and my work was fine with me taking Friday off, so I had to get my self together. I am passed the denial stage, just havent cried and being happier, and going to see how long it takes me to not take Paxil, or just take it any way. I haven't taken my paxil since I heard of the bad news. I know my Depression, went out of whack and taking that day off helped.
Her Service is Next week, I am going to ask some one if they can call me while they have the service, I want to be there, just wan't to take the time off and get a ticket. I know she is not suffering with everything wrong that she had wrong, she is laughing and singing and watching down on me, as I write this.
I love and Miss you Auntie...... tell Mom I said HI, and give her kisses and hugs. Thanks.
sorry to hear about your loss!
i hope you get to hear the service!
i am glad you have been able to cope so well, depression is all about managing it and rolling with the punches so to speak, being at a point where you can recognise when you need a little extra help and being able to enjoy life the rest of the time is wonderful!! so happy for you in that regard!
i hope you get to hear the service!
i am glad you have been able to cope so well, depression is all about managing it and rolling with the punches so to speak, being at a point where you can recognise when you need a little extra help and being able to enjoy life the rest of the time is wonderful!! so happy for you in that regard!
Before you stop taking your Paxil, you need to talk to the prescribing doctor. If you think you don't need it anymore, the doctor will probably have a proceedure for reducing then stopping your meds unless you are on a very low dosage. Just stopping your depression medication can have bad results - like sending you into a depression spiral. Do yourself a favor and call the doctor to discuss reducing or quitting depression medication.
