AHA! moment/subject of the week.

did anyone have a moment where they feel like they finally got it?  when you decided to have surgery?  or was it a gradual process? 

For me it was on my mind for a long time, i went to my first seminar in 2005. 

One day i was at a convention and looked around at the elderly in wheelchairs.  i remember thinking, wow our generation has really got it wrong,  all these old people may have problems getting around but they are all skinny.  why are none of the old people fat?  then i realised that it wanst that the old people werent fat, it was that the fat people didnt live to grow old.  i realised that most overweight people die of heart attacks and diabetes etc in their 50s-60s.  it was a huge wake up call.

i used to be able to eat what i wanted and be overweight but still active, but as time went by i felt like i was bricking myself into a fat prison,  i dont know when it happened but i had lost my ability to do things and had been turning a blind eye.  i wasnt liveing the life i wanted, i wwas living the only life i could and that was no longer good enough for me.

i also have a 6 year old son and i realised that i made a commitment to him to be there and be the best mom i could be.  so far i had failed. he was so happy the day i rode a bike with him that it made me cry.

i have since lost weight and played parents vs kids softball with him.

next up go karts!