My Personal Sabatoge Goal - Lower Carbs by 30%

 I have to apologize for not posting sooner.  After All I started this Personal Sabotage Goal" thing
I have to thank Dan for suggesting posting progress, concerns and set backs.    I would have been here sooner if I had Internet connections that did not give me a headache,. 

Well I have to admit I still am struggling with it and have not taken the steps to log food to track it but I can report that I am more aware of it when I am indulging.   I feel that is a small step but a least it is a step.  

If I had to determine what my Carib drop was I would have to estimate it as a 5% drop in CARIB intake.    

Monday tell all time is coming and I have to be accountable for reporting success or failure.    I am going to report success because I am thinking of being accountable.     I am thinking seriously of making a adjusted Personal Sabotage Goal to add to my Main Personal Sabotage Goal.    I am not sure what it is but I will have to tell someone about.     



I have put more portion rich foods in my cupboard and feel I am eating less then when I was int he hospital.    Strange don't' you think. 6 weeks in a hospital and I ate more.   Mostly because you had to choose what to eat on their schedule and because the doctors had me on insulin.    5 units of long acting... and I still had more hypoglycemic reactions and I at a full Carib load before bedtime to stop the middle of the nights drop in sugars.    That lasted for a week before I told the doctor I am not taking any more insulin..   guess what my sugars were normal and I stopped having low blood sugars  You got to love Gastric Bypass Surgery

I am glad you were finally able to post.  I hope you are still feeling well.  I am still shocked sometimes when I do my food log at how many calories I ate in a day. I should probably eat only 1000 to be where I want to be and some days it is almost twice that.  I don't feel good about it but at least I know and can think of ways to change it.  I will see you Monday night at the meeting.  Lynne

 I guess is is my own private journal on my Sabatage Goals. 

I had old habit of eating come up this week and it is a repetative habit of eating when I am trying to get some project done and I get stumped on a grafic or somethime a learning curve stops my progress.   I guess I want what ever is not working for me to work so I can move onto a new part of of the project.     

When it fails I fail.   I try to figure out how I can eat more and not gain weight.   again it goes back to
" I can;t fix it so I might feel numb and then it won't be ;so bad."

The real sad part is I dont want to give up the fix.   omg... Dan put it best  I AM ADDICTED  to food. and will always be an addict.   I wonder if going to a AA MEETING would be a support group I may get closure on.   I will bring this up at our meeting tonight
  

I went to OA (Overeaters Anonymous) for a while.  It was very interesting and helped a little. I was very overweight and most of the people there were anorexic (sp?).  But it was still educational.  Lynne