Friendship and Support

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another, "What! You too? I thought I was the only one!" by C. S. Lewis

That's how CCCares was born.... The premise is, we are not alone on this journey. We are here to let you know, "you are not the only one!" Join in, come to the monthly meetings, attend our events, post your questions and concerns, share your experiences.         Dan

 thank you for sending me that message dan.. it just seems ridiculously hard to come back to this site..i found OH when i was looking up cellulitis. I contracted that at the end of Feb and ended up in Hartford Hospital for 5 days..totally freaking out at what was going on with my legs. I have lymphedema in both legs, and its hereditary.   I used to be really good at yo-yoing from 200 to 300 pounds from winter to summer. now that i'm 44 my body just doesnt want to bounce back anymore.

 i had looked into bariatric surgury and connecticare denied me the surgury because i'm the only one at work who has a policy, and they dont cover small businesses.  cant get the rider (whatever that means).  So, it was hard enough coming to the decision that yes..i need this, but to be denied right after finding out I have a BMI of 65 and theres a WHOLE new catagory called SEVERE morbid obesity. omg. I signed up to go to a gym, it was 10 bucks a week, no contracts. I havent been to a gym since high school..hahahaha.  the first day i did 2 min on the treadmill. the next day i did 2 and a half.  I went every day, i got that "energy bug/high" whatever its called, and just couldnt wait to go after work. i was losing up to and close to 6 lbs a week. every week i had an hour with the trainer there to go over different machines, and the 5th week I went and worked out on the leg machines.  well, i can blame myself for knowing i had a back back and some thinning disc and sciatica issues but I had told the trainer all that, and he really had no business even putting me on them, never mind saying "add more weight, do more reps"  POP went the disc and that was the last day i spent in that gym.  

Now its been 10 months since then. i've gained close to 140 pounds in ten months. I cant move, i cant breathe, i cant walk. between the cellulitis, lymphedema, back issues and now my BMI is a 70.1 I'm just beside myself not knowing what to do. i need help, an ear to listen to me... advice on what to do about insurance, i was looking into policies online because a nurse at the bariatric place said that alot of their patients got denied and went online and found companies that would allow it.  so thats where I am right now. phew..... almost 2 am now. so thanks for listening to me.  

wow thats tough... sorry to hear your having a rough road, i think we can all relate to the doing good and then something bad happening that kinda blows it all up... have to called and talked to middlesex financial aide? honestly... i did, i have insurance, conneticare and because i wasnt having it the hospital i worked at i had a huge co-pay for each day i was in the hospita (would get waved if i went to where i worked), and i couldnt do it if i had to pay all that up from... so i called them and they sent me an application, i was sureeee they wouldnt help since i "earn so much" but they did at 50%, they cover a lot, and maybe they can help you... in fact their phone number is...860-358-2402...  please keep your spirits up and know that you have support and ears when you need them...


and Dan thanks a lot for the quote... dear gloria has become my light this last week or two.. and omg i honestly dont think i could have made it through with out her... she is an amazing listening, confidant, and can help point me in the right direction with some personal things in life, i honestly cant even put into words how great she has been, (thank you gloria)... i've spent the last couple weeks and it gets more and more everyday feeling like i deserve things in my life and im freakin sexy (or getting there) and its been hard cuz i am getting some reaction from ex-important people in my life that makes it hard cuz this is all so new... oh well,,... im doing good (today) and plan to hopefully keep doing good... with bumps in the road that i know i can turn to someone who will listen and then slap me and tell me to stop being an idiot

cassie