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There is no such thing as TMI here. Thank you for being here and speaking out. For me being positive can be unnatural but I know through overcoming past challeges: domestic violence and  addiction for example, that keeping this **** bottled up does not work. Trying to do it alone does not work. Unwillingness to be honest does not work. Even when I thought that I was 'cured' of the things in my past, after wls, the food demons that wouldnt die after having my guts rearranged let me know that there are some deeply rooted thoughts feelings and behaviors that I have yet to address. For me this group is the first step.

I congratulate myself today for sticking to my one-serving-per-day rule for granola. I made a huge batch of it the other day, then portioned it out into baggies. Before I did that, I had a tendency to graze on it -- I'd just grab a handful every time I walked past the container. My new rule is that I can have one serving per day, and I've been sticking to that. I like eating it because it tastes so good to me, but I also like that I'm getting that fiber in, and fighting high cholestrol at the same time.

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Great job! You're thinking like a thin person!

I have changed my food plan for today three times already - I GIVE MYSELF CREDIT for keeping the changes within my calorie limits   I also give myself credit for throwing out a can of soup I was given but didn't like instead of eating it anyway

It is a huge struggle for me too when I feel I am not treated, or more often, viewed fairly.  My biggest struggle comes when I think someone has an opinion involving me or my actions that is wrong and I am in a situation where I am unable to defend myself or my action without making things worse.  It took me a long time (I am 45) to see that this is a horrible trigger for my emotional breakdowns.  I believe it comes from certain issues in childhood where I had no voice in an abusive, secretive situation.  Sorry if TMI.
Can I say that having a positive outlook and gratitude is such a healthy way to handle life.  However, the way you are programmed for decades in life can be a powerful thing to overcome.  That is why I so appreciate this new forum to hopefully be honest.  The biggest healing in my adult life has come when I was finally able to say outloud, often on paper, the dark things I felt that I was so ashamed of.  It is amazing how much power things lose when you can get them out of your head and into the real world.
I say all that to say THANK YOU Free Spirit for being brave enough to say the things that are not easy to admit, things you know better than to be thinking, but you can't heal until you identify the "wrong " thinking.
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