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Keep working Melva.    Even though I am on a different day, your topic jumped out at me this morning.    It was my weigh-in day.   I haven't lost any weight since I hit Onderland two weeks ago.   I have finally needed to deal with discouragement.   I know that I am doing most of the right things, and that weight loss will continue.  I know that my body is still shrinking because I can walk right out of my pants.   Going to buy new ones tomorrow.  This is the first time I have really had to give myself a pep talk.

--April

I grew up as a very skinny kid.  I was extremely active.  My mother was concerned that I was too thin and she urged me to eat more.  By the time I was a teenager, I was the garbage can at the end of meals--we couldn't waste food so Bob would eat it.  I was very active and was always in the normal weight for my age.  In nice weather I rode my bicycle 6-10 miles per day and was active with my friends besides that.  I weighed 165 when I graduated HS.  I remained active while in college.  Well, I didn't have much time for anything during my first year and a half of college.  It was a dismal time for me as I was an electrical engineering student and had to study like crazy.  I was nearly failing and hated it but it was what my Dad wanted ( I had a cousin who put himself through college, loved engineering, and was already a millionaire).  In the middle of my sophomore year I became an English major and became active again.  I ran around campus in nice weather--this was back in the 60s and that wasn't popular.  In warm weather my friends and I would go on daily bicycle rides of about 25 miles and come home and shoot hoops in addition to working full time summer jobs.

I graduated college in 1972 and got a county gov job and went to work for SSA when SSI came along in 1974.  I was also married that year.  I transferred within the fed gov to another agency in 1980 and worked there until I permanently retired in July, 1992 due to occupational diability due to manic-depression.  I simpley couldn't manage my casework.  I was given the choice of filing for disability or getting fired.  I got the message.  That agency was extremely nice as far as benefis and helping me through the whole process.

I weighed 175 when I graduated college, 190 when I got married, and 200 when I got back from the honeymoon.  I proceeded to gain about 15 lbs per year after that until one year when I gained 100 lbs.  I weighed about 571 when I had my first RNY and got down to 336 before I started regaining weight.  The surgeon said that was normal bounce-back weight.  However, it just slowly kept creeping up.  I couldn't eat more than the allowed amounts at meals, but I constantly snacked.  I couldn't walk because I had been laid up in bed for several mos following the RNY.  By the time I did start to walk, I was very weak.  Now my knees kill me and limit my exercise.
I found out in the summer of 2004 that I had a staple line disruption--the effect was as if I had never had the WLS.  I had a revision RNY on 01-21-05 and went from 420 to 380 due to that RNY.  When I went for a follow-up visit, I perceived the nurse as being nasty and I never went back there.  I realized I was more severely depressed and needed to change meds but the shrink said I was taking the max dose of that medicine and he's have to wait 9 mos post-op to wean me off it and start me on a different anti-depressant.  I slowly began to gain weight again.
I had to go to an outpatient mental hosp during the changeover of my meds and the group therapy was the worst experience of my life.  I'd rather be dead than go through that again.  I'm not suicidal but I'd look for different care rather than go into that loony bin.  Once my meds were changed, my thinking changed.  I joined a gym and started working out in a therapy pool.  However, 6 mos later I fell a couple times in their parking lot and they cancelled my enrollment.  the next year I joined the YMCA but their pool had too much chlorine and caused sores on my legs--I had to quit.

THE GOOD PART-- Last year I posted on the Main Forum asking about a self help book about behavior modification.  A member who is a food addict in remission and a therapist recommended the Beck's Diet Solution and said she uses it in both individual and group couneling with her clients.  I got it and lost 50 lbs between 01-08-09 and 05-20-09.  Then I had the misfortune of treating myself with addicting food in celebration ( after 4+ mos of clean living).  I haven't been clean since.  However, I'm actually at a lower weight than I was back then.  I'm just losing very slowly.  Now I'm reworking Becks at a very slow pace--1 of Beck's Days per calendar week and I'm posting it to the Hunger and Food Troubles Forum.  It should talke me through mid Dec to go through Beck's this time but, I have a lifetime to work it and rework it.  I intend to rarely post on the Becks Group as it doesn't really need me and I now get my support elsewhere.

Hey Molly,

Welcome to this group, first of all you are not a failure. We all had some sort of WLS and after the surgery we all lost weight, that part was easy, but the work begins when or mind is catching up with our body or vice versa.

We are all working on maintaining or reaching our goal. This group is a safe place to be we are non judgmental and genuinely support each other. We learn and grow- in our minds that is from each other.

Now jump in get your becks diet solution Book and workbook if you want, and what we do is, after the intro we go day by day. this not only preps us for the meal and diet planning but gives us psychological reasons to maintain.Different from anything I have ever done and so far I have lost 11 pounds and losing,since joining this group. I got my book from Amazon.com used was in good condition did not pay a lot for it, and it is worth every penny.

Again welcome to the group, post frequently we are here to help...


Melva

I will read it today I will also be looking for your post in the morning Bev when I get back I am taking the kids to the mountains for their spring break that will be the following week
Melva

Thats good to hear Melva, if it wasn't for Crystal lite I would not drink any water at all. Our tap water is gross, we have bottled water and I don't care for it neither.

I     Crystal Lite !