Trying AGAIN!

I can't tell you how many times I have said that! (trying again). I'm sure that is all too familiar to everyone here, or you wouldn't be here

"If only I could". We know all of the things we should be doing. My hope is that coming here will help me gain the support to accomplish those "I coulds" a Little more often & on a more consistent basis. I never complete anything, I have zero portion control, I have very low self discipline when it comes to food & exercising, but of course I always have great intentions. Those don't get me far though. I feel as though I need a drill Sergeant standing behind me with a club or hammer in their hand to hit me over the head each time the thought of putting something totally unnecessary in my mouth comes along or when I choose laziness over getting up & getting some exercise. Ugh... so frustrating. 

Lol...a drill sgt..I don't exactly have one but close enough (he's a staff sgt in the Army) and trust me it doesn't help. When he tries (bless him) I just yell and tell him he's not helping. I'm starting again..I am so ashamed of myself. I've gained quite a bit of my weight back. I was down to 160-165 and now I'm tapping the door of 200..might as well say opening the door. My hubby honored my request yesterday and came home with a HUGE container of Isopure dutch chocolate protein powder. I dug in my heels said hi to my old friend "protein" and decided I've worked too hard to let this weight get the best of me. I'm very glad to be here with everyone that like me, are struggling. I get so sick of everyone(family & friends) expecting me to be superhuman and because I've had weight loss surgery I'm supposed to NEVER EVER gain another ounce of weight. I've had RNY and a tummy tuck and I'm here to tell ya the weight comes on just as quickly now as before both surgeries. It's a constant battle, one that I sometimes (most of the time) cry, scream, argue and pity myself for having to deal with. I am here if ya ever need an ear...its a day to day struggle but we will do it

Amen sistahs. I can identify with both of you. I started out at 290 and then lost down to 137. Doc told me that I needed to put some back on. That was my first mistake. I took it as a ticket to eat what I want. (I guess) I have gained back up to 220. I feel like a failure. I need that swift kick realllly fast. I know that I can do it. I just have to be accountable to someone else. I look forward to hearing some input from you all. Hope to talk to you soon. Joyce

I can relate to everything you said. I know it has to come from within, but when you are feeling lower than a snakes belly, it makes it tough.

I am here to get real and to just do it this time. I am sick of waiting around for my life.

I know it will get easier in time, but the beginning is really tough, especially when you are beating yourself up for not succeeding the first time.


self discipline
portion control
great intentions
laziness
getting moving
just going outside
could of, should of all over myself
procrastination

only solution is to take action today
can't do anything about yesterday, it is dead and gone, except for all those tapes of self loathing we have running thru our heads for not being successful here

I think it gets to be like any addiction, we only get a daily reprieve. Have to really work on being vigilant.

Practicing Vigilance Today!

only solution is to take action today
can't do anything about yesterday, it is dead and gone, except for all those tapes of self loathing we have running thru our heads for not being successful here

 I needed to read that today...thanks!