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I been derailed and back on track again and again for over 25 years. Going on and off diets and on and off servival mode. Let me briefly explain. 25 years ago I had WLS very similar to what you all know as a VSG. After 5 years and loss of 170 lbs, I started to really suffer from acid reflux, GERD, valve sticking, vomiting and much discomfort. Unable to get answers from my family Dr and the surgeon refused to see me. I figured if I regained some weight I would be happie and people around me would stop saying I look sick So I happily gained 30 lbs. it didnt help my pain and discomfort but I depended too much on milk and cream foods.  Until Jan 2014 my ability to eat foods ceased. I could only drink my foods. I couldnt keep anything down. I juiced veggies and fruit but could not tolerate any meat broth. Within 2 months, i lost 50 lbs and very anemic. Clearly that survival mode didnt work. The Drs in ER suggested I drink 6 bottles of ensure a day to get the nutrition I needed. So while they were searching for a bariatric specialist, I survived and gained the 50 lbs back. I, nor my Family Dr knew about Revision WLS.  Thankfully a surgeon was found who could help me by way of revision to RNY. Well, 6 months out and i found myself in survival mode. No more acid reflux but now Im lactose intolerant, cannot keep protein shakes down and only tolerating fish and chicken. My blood pressure crashed everyday by about 2:00. I monitored my blood sugar and blood pressure everyday to discuss with my family dr. Im back on more carbs in the day which stopped the crashing, vomitting and I started gaining weight. Oh no...here I go again. I was down to 160 lbs just after Christmas and now Im up 5 lbs. so the nutritionist and I go over my meals and she suggests I talk to a therapist specializing in emotional eating disorders.  So I shopping for someone in my area and in the meantime I am trying to get back on track. I am hungry all the time. I never dealt with the psychological aspect of my eating disorder. Im confused and mybe at a loss how to go into survival or back on track mode.

I agree with H.a.l.a. but with one exception for me (well 2, because I will NEVER have the will power to stop at just a "little" chocolate so I avoid 100%). I do allow myself (with the approval from my NUT) to eat sweet potatoes. She feels the benefits far out way the negatives from the starch. Besides that, I see starchy things as bad as I see carbs and sugars. BTW, yes I am as neurotic as you when it comes to food and 'trying' to make the right choices ;)

Oh being on the road would be very difficult for me as well I think! I have the advantage of not being able to eat while at work so the only time it is possible for me to eat is during my lunch break. And I often end up working late so it puts my dinner off even later and closer to bed time. Have you ever considered getting one of those Bento lunch boxes? They do look good and there are MANY lunch idea's you can find on here and other sites such as "theworldaccordingtoeggface".

It's so funny how different people are. I'm the opposite. On days off I find keeping my food in line is easier because I'm not on the road running. I'm a home care nurse though, so I'm not near a microwave and I find it hard to pack a lunch. A sandwich is easy, other things require too many containers.

This is very preliminary because I'm not anywhere near expert but right now I'm avoiding emotional eating by learning to eat 3 meals and one bedtime snack. Since I have a pouch I'm following the pouch rules with it.Sometimes my breakfast is only coffee with half and half but it's still breakfast. Pouchie doesn't care for morning, lol. I have an eating disorder so eating in a routine is a big deal for me to accomplish.