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I know it's water weight because there is no possible way I've gained 3 lbs in 2 days but here it is, that's what the scale says. I feel like I'm never going to lose this weight. I look pregnant and I'm scared to death to go to my inlaws wedding renewal tomorrow. If someone asks me when I'm due I think I'm going to hide in my house until I've lost all of my excess weight. I'm terrified to leave for anyone to see me because that simple question would break me. Today is day 8 of being back on track and tomorrow I have to worry about what to eat because I can't take my own food there and I'm not sure what's being served :'( I'm not going to eat before I go so that I'm making up for the calories I eat at the reception. I planned on dancing while I was there but now I'm doubting i will be doing that, who wants to see the fat girl shaking her a** on a dance floor? I have 60 lbs to loose and I'm not sure if I can do it. I'm going to cut my coffee out again until I can get some sweetner. I have sugar free syrups coming for my coffee in the next week or so. When they come I will start drinking my coffee again. Tomorrow I'm going to be very careful what I do and what I eat. I just need to lose this water weight and start losing the other weight. I want to be below 190 and right now as of today I'm 195 even. I'm hoping since I took my water pills tonight that I will weigh less tomorrow. I'm not holding my breath though because my body likes screwing with me like this. It's like every time I start to lose weight BAM I get it right back in a matter of a day or two and it never goes away just goes up. I'm tired of feeling like this, I'm tired of this excess weight, I'm tired of NOT being the biggest loser, I'm tired of being sick, Tired of being tired, Tired of struggling to do every day things. I'm tired of my back, knees, hips, and ankles hurting. Please tell me your stories and struggles so I know i"m not alone because alone is exactly how i feel right now

Hi all,  good day so far.  Head in the game and feeling mentally healthy.

B protein shake

L protein shake

d protein shake.  going to the movie.  hubby will have popcorn with the 'butter?'.  I'll have a handful and hopefully thats all.  Thinking if I bring a protein shake I won't be so interested in the popcorn.

s sf jello protein shake if needed

ps - Cathy is is really nice to have you back!

How rewarding it must be to take the high school girls to the conference.  Your support of them and attending the conference will be great for them.  My prayers and BOT thoughts will be with you.  

I try to avoid convenience stores too.  It sounds silly to some people but all the junk, snacky sugary stuff there is like a landmine to me.  It sure sounds like you're planning ahead.

I went for PT last night for my bionic knee.  For the long-term, I know I'll be glad for my PT.  I really like my trainer but the exercises are sore and draining.  He told me in the past seven years that he's had only 7-10 patients that have been able to do the advanced difficulty exercises that I'm doing.  That makes me feel great for the longevitity of my knee so I don't have to get another one.  Supposedly they are good for 10-15 years which means I'll need to have another total knee surgery....no thanks!  

My eats for today:

B - 2 cups of coffee w/cream and Splenda

L - Turkey Meatloaf with salsa (the last leftover!)

D - Pork Tenderloins with green beans

S - Apple with 1 T. of peanut butter

S - 1 graham cracker with 1 T. of peanut butter

Happy Valentine's Day Eve!

I saw this post and it was so inspirational to me.  All of the big AND small things she write about made me grateful for my WLS.  Since it is on one of the public message boards, open to everyone to see, I wanted to share with all of you too in BOTT.

http://www.obesityhelp.com/forums/wls_grads/5305405/I-love-new-body/

Interesting, thanks.  Had never heard of it before.