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yesterday ended up sucking big time. I made a stupid mistake which put me into an eating frenzy. I ate toast, this is a trigger for me. As i was making it I even told my husband I shouldn't be eating it but here I did it any way and continued to eat the rest of the night. i didn't even track the rest of the nights food because I ate so much i was scared to see how many calories I was up to. I'm sure I was over my daily burn. I'm not losing weight and I'm so frustrated and now this. I have my meals planned out for the day but it's really going to be a struggle because my stomach is stretched today due to my pig out yesterday. I feel like I'm on a diet and this is about the time I would give up. I have to get through this and stay the course but man is this hard. What is the difference between this and a diet? I want to start taking ali again just to kick start things but I don't think it would be good on my tiny tummy. I do not understand why my weight won't come down when I've done good for two weeks now. I should have dropped something, anything, but there has been no change except losing some of my water weight. I forgot my water pill last night so I woke up at 193,4 I don't know if that will change for the better or not but this time around my lowest weight was 192.8. I'm not really believing I'm there now without my water weight because here it is a few hours after I woke up and I'm 196. I hate that my weight bounces around. I'm having terrible back, hip, and knee pain and I refuse to go to the doctor's office because I know he will weigh me. I feel ashamed when I go in because he knows I had weight loss surgery and knows I never got to the weight I was supposed to. He also knows from my records that I have gained weight instead. I feel like I'm screwed. Anyone else self sabotage? How do you deal with it? Maybe I'm making excuses? I don't know any more but I'm letting myself down and only I can change it.

Getting ready to travel to my daughter's for the weekend barring more snow. So over winter... Didn't sleep well last night and got into some night eating. Really need to sit myself down and figure out what's going on. I was so on track with listening to my body, but now I find myself slipping up too often. 

My plan for today:

B: Click

L: Protein shake

D: Grilled chicken with a salad

S: Apple with almond butter

Have a good day.

Ditto what drea29 replied to you.  Posting daily eats and check-in posts have helped me to stay on track.  Posting here on BOTT and on the message boards helps me lots.  Being active in the OH community and BOTT keeps me on track.

Gee sounds like a great program.  Is it local to you?  Is it a fee based deal?  Glad you found something that you like and actually works for you.  Yeah for you!!