April 29 A new week begins....

Today starts a new week and I am going to give it my all. I think Fridays will be my weigh in day. I am going to fine tune my meals. I haven't felt like I have swallowed food since 2 weeks before my rny when I started the liquid diet. If I overeat, food rapidly raises my blood sugar. If I take extra insulin, my appetite goes crazy. I am not really sure what my diet plan should look like. 6 meals is still sending my on a blood sugar roller coaster. I have split my Lantus into a morning and evening dose. It is helping my blood sugars. I am now going to try smaller more frequent doses of Humalog this week. Maybe I need 8 or even 12 meals a day. I think today I should experiment. Over the past 15 years I have been physically helped by a few wonderful doctors and hurt by many doctors. If a surgery can be botched it has been. For years I have a recurring nightmare of being strapped onto an operating table and repeatedly stabbed. I am actually scared of going to the clinic. This makes a revision impossible for me so I have to find a way to manage my weight and blood sugars on my own. Tri

My meal plan today:

7 B: 1/4th Santa Fe crust veggie quiche 170

9 S: clementines 70

10 S: plain Greek yogurt 90

11 S: salad 100

12 L: brown rice, turkey, broccoli 350

2 S: Slimfast snack and sf pudding 170

3 S: my fat free/sugar free cheesecake 150

4 S: my veggie soup with cut up turkey dog 150

5 D: pasta, Italian veggies and 1/2 sausage 350

9 S: apple and walnuts 250

1850 calories

7 glasses of water