Looking forward to

I think we sit and look forward to what our new life will hold when we are in our losing time (months). Look forward to shopping instead of dreading it. Look forward to going places instead of fear of being seen. Look forward to having more energy for our family. All sorts of things to look forward to. But once reaching goal, I wonder what others look forward to? I spend SO MANY YEARS of my life (from childhood to my 40's) setting all my 'dreams' basically on "if only I were skinny or at least were not MO". That once you reach that point, then what? When I reached goal, I lived on cloud 9 for awhile. I enjoyed how I felt how I was able to move and for once in my life NOT feeling like everyone was ignoring me or worse yet, looking at me with disgust!! But after about 2 years that feeling settled down. I got more comfortable with how I looked and felt. And sad to say even as my belly started to bloat a little, I thought it was kind of cute!! Crazy to say but I thought hey most women deal with a tiny bit of weight troubles this just makes me more 'normal'. I don't know how else to explain it. I of course now realize it was a huge mistake for someone like me. I need to never let myself start to slide down that slippery slope. For me, I need to be more in control of my weight or a little weight problem will quickly get me back to where I spent so many miserable years!! I am again looking forward to not have a bloated belly. Looking forward to the increase in energy and looking forward to being proud of myself for having control of my weight. I have 15 more pounds to go.