August 27

So here it is Thursday and I am just now getting around to posting.

It's been busy and last night at the Bariatric Surgery Support group, I came to a realization about my biggest challenge.  I thought it was just that I don't know how to handle it when unexpected things come up.  But sitting in that room and talking with other people struggling, I realized that the real problem is STILL that I don't know how to prioritize my own health above what every one else wants, needs or expects.

The weird thing is, that most people around me now don't expect me to put aside my needs to take care of things.  I just do it - like an automatic reflex.  Something goes wrong that might inconvenience you?  Here!  Let me fix it for you! I put off what I need to do because "it's not really that important".  I thought I was beyond that, but apparently I'm not. 

And yet, last night my phone went off to remind me of the support group.  My family wanted to go out to dinner to celebrate my son getting on a select baseball team (1st time trying out for a competitive team and get got on!  We're very proud.)  And yet, I decided that I wouldn't use that to miss the meeting.  I went and met up with them later.  And I am SO glad I did!  Being around people who can relate and understand was so important to me.  I even teared up some and I really don't do a lot of crying.

So, with that in mind, here is my food plan for the day

B: HB patty, cheese, protein shake

L: small bowl chili and 1/2 turkey sandwich

s: Stabylize bar

dinner: beef fajita meat, grilled peppers and onion, low-carb wrap, cheese

s: (if needed) protein shake

I am proud of you for making your support group. I am so guilty of that myself, not putting myself before others. My mom requires 24 hr care as she has had 2 strokes and on dialysis so i take care of her and forget about myself. This is crazy and ironic because she was the thing that motivated me to have surgery. I did not want the health problems that she had. 

so today  i had an appt with my nutritionist, it has been almost 7 years oops.  I wheeled my momma in with me and afterwards i felt so proud of myself for making that step.  I hope i can keep my motivation to do better. Tomorrow is a new day and i am excited to began my health journey. AGAIN. LOL.