Struggles or victories any one would like to share?

Wish there was a little more dialogue here. Hope every one is doing well.

I am having a tough week. Hurt my back at work and I think the pain and lack of sleep is making me want to eat more. Really struggling to keep my calories below 1400, been averaging about 1200. 

I guess I am just feeling a little whiny. Of course I had to start my period this week, 9 days early thank you Mother Nature. Hormones!

any one want to share how their week is going?

Hi!  I agree, would love more posts.  So, I'll go ahead even though I'm not particularly interesting.  I had RNY in 2007.  I was 366 lbs at my highest and got down to 185 within the first 18 mos.  Then I took complete leave of my senses and started drinking alcohol.  Quantities of wine so great that I started buying by the box.  When I was drinking, I did not want to cook - so started eating fast food - pizza and potato chips, corn chips etc.

By the time I regained my reason, I had gone from 185 to 310.  I'm back on track now and am currently 278 lbs.  I'm back to taking calcium and vitamins which I had given up while drinking. 

The weight is coming off slowly but steadily.  I'm trying to get a grip on why I gained weight to begin with (old story - lousy childhood) including sexual abuse, neglect.  The surgery gave me the physical answer but the emotional hunger was another story all together.  I come here to see that I'm not alone in my struggle and to gain inspiration and support from others who have walked in the same shoes as me.

hang in there, you have not done significant damage yet.  Before you eat something question yourself - are you feeding your stomach or your head.  I go on You Tube and watch videos on Bariatric surgery or watch an episode of My 600 lb Life (I recorded the whole last season).  I find that revisiting stories of people who desperately would want to trade places with me a sure fire appetite killer.  Hope this helps in some small way.

Thanks Shirley for your honesty. You're an amazing woman. I guess I am struggling with the fact of my food addiction is still there. I just want to stuff down the pain and the emotions just like the pre surgery me.

I guess I haven't done any serious damage yet, but I could easily see myself weighing more that I did pre op, if I don't change my relationship with food. 

Love the idea abou****ching the videos. Great job on getting back on track!

Maria

If you go to You Tube, do a search for "Fat Doctor" - it is a British show about people needing and getting weight loss surgery.  There are quite a few.

Shirley, thank you for sharing your story - I'm so happy that you are reigning it in and are doing so well getting the weight down!  I haven't gone off the reservation so much as lost my focus.  I am one of the very successful serial dieters.  I have lost close to 1,000 lbs over the years so was very good at yo-yo dieting.  WLS was truly the answer and now that I'm over two years out I had gotten a tad complacent even though I hadn't reached goal yet.

So this week (yep, this very week) I actually started doing what I'm supposed to do. Drinking my water. Restricting carbs. Getting adequate protein (ooo that one is still hard for me).  I never failed on my vitamins and exercise though I had cut back on running.  So I ran 5K today and feel like I can keep that going as well. 

Thankful for my surgery, for the vets here who speak truth even if we don't think we want it, and for a tool that STILL WORKS!!  :o)

2015: the year I make it to goal  ~~~

Keep up the good work. 5 K? You go girl. Here is to you making it to goal.

Maria

I was posting in this group almost daily for a while.  I had regain and i had a very hard time to understand what was going on with my body. Having severe RH - eating was a challenge

Posting daily on BOTT helped me find a pattern, and understand what was going on. 

It was a strugle to accept what i need to do to stop gaing and start losing weight. But once i did, and stop fighting....i regained control over my eating. I got tested for food allergies and as hard s it is, i have to work really hard to avoid foods that i am either allergic to or i have intolerance to. 

For me ~i need to follow  low carb, FODMAP diet. Avoiding grains, starches, fruits, dairy. Etc. 

Most artificial sweeteners are also out.  

I had to figure out what works for me, in my situation... It took a while. 

I am still coming here, and offer support

What helped me in the past was to post daily, even just for myself.  Regardless if anyone else was posting or not. 

If you need moreposts ~ start posting daily... Some days ~ you will get more responses, some days you will not. 

H.a.l.a, you are absolutely right about the posts!  Your response shows very positive thinking.

I agree 100% about carbs, especially refined sugary products.  Processed carb-laden products are my enemy.  I love my enemy, but I do recognize now that I can't invite it into my diet and still be healthy and keep on track.

Even unrefined carbs, like in beans, fruits, grains, etc. afected my BS level - that in turn affected my insulin, and hunger. 

Giving up on unrefined carbs like grains, most fruits, even nuts that have higher carb to fat ratio was really hard.  Accepting that most fruits are no-no for me, and the one i can have needs to be  limited to one or 2 times a week was REALLY hard. 

I went through phases of crying, being angry, rebailing, etc... At the end i learned how to modify my diet, cook in a new way, even be able to enjoy my new way of eating. 

I still have "stupidity" hour or so, but the "payback" when i stray is a ***** The hunger, the gas, the anxiety, severe RH, etc etc... Are really just reinforcement for me too stay the course.

In my book ~ carb is a carb is a carb. Ther are no "free carbs", "net carbs", etc... 

So called "fiber" in processed food like protein bars (i.e. quest bars) is a joke to my body and bacteria in my gut. They become masters of processing any carb into sugar. 

Thanks Hala! I always appreciate your posts and feed back. It means a lot to know that you get it. 

I don't have RH, but carbs do make me very hungry. I love fruit, but it can really get me into a grazing mode. 

Maria