How I'm doing today! Plus water intake

I'm doing it!! I got four cups of water in me and only half a cup of coffee!!! Yay me!! I woke up at 192.8 but have read 194,8 ever since so I'm assuming it was a malfunction of the scale. So far today I've had 4 cups of water, 1 egg, and half a cup of coffee with 2 tbs of non dairy creamer. Not to shabby. :D I think for lunch I will be eating ham. Made one last night and it turned out pretty good. I didn't realize how few calories were in ham. I will try getting in an ounce and a half today because I could only manage a half ounce yesterday (but ate the insides of a baked potato) I'm going to skip the potato today and see what else i can eat through the day. yesterday I ate some toast too. NOT doing that today. I don't know why I do that to myself. It always leaves me hungry. So I will skip that today too. I am going to stick to my evening cocoa wheats because that fills me up and for some reason even though it has tons of carbs doesn't leave me hungry. Guess it's good carbs? Not sure but I don't crave anything afterwards. Hope you all are doing wonderful

Hi glad your feeling better!  Nothing like a little success to boost a gals moral!  Keep up the good work!

yesterday ended up sucking big time. I made a stupid mistake which put me into an eating frenzy. I ate toast, this is a trigger for me. As i was making it I even told my husband I shouldn't be eating it but here I did it any way and continued to eat the rest of the night. i didn't even track the rest of the nights food because I ate so much i was scared to see how many calories I was up to. I'm sure I was over my daily burn. I'm not losing weight and I'm so frustrated and now this. I have my meals planned out for the day but it's really going to be a struggle because my stomach is stretched today due to my pig out yesterday. I feel like I'm on a diet and this is about the time I would give up. I have to get through this and stay the course but man is this hard. What is the difference between this and a diet? I want to start taking ali again just to kick start things but I don't think it would be good on my tiny tummy. I do not understand why my weight won't come down when I've done good for two weeks now. I should have dropped something, anything, but there has been no change except losing some of my water weight. I forgot my water pill last night so I woke up at 193,4 I don't know if that will change for the better or not but this time around my lowest weight was 192.8. I'm not really believing I'm there now without my water weight because here it is a few hours after I woke up and I'm 196. I hate that my weight bounces around. I'm having terrible back, hip, and knee pain and I refuse to go to the doctor's office because I know he will weigh me. I feel ashamed when I go in because he knows I had weight loss surgery and knows I never got to the weight I was supposed to. He also knows from my records that I have gained weight instead. I feel like I'm screwed. Anyone else self sabotage? How do you deal with it? Maybe I'm making excuses? I don't know any more but I'm letting myself down and only I can change it.

When I got back on track after a length of time, I felt overwhelmed.  I broke it down into small chunks.  One of mine was grazing.  After a few failed attempts, I decided not to graze for four days a week.  After I handled four days a week, I added a fifth day and progressed to the entire seven days.  

What about if you got back on track in a staggered way as in moderation on a few days and then back on track the other days?  Would that work for you?

Could you not weigh for a period of times.  The numbers made me bonkers.  It might be easier if you didn't know the numbers.  Just my $.02.  

When I got back on track after a length of time, I felt overwhelmed.  I broke it down into small chunks.  One of mine was grazing.  After a few failed attempts, I decided not to graze for four days a week.  After I handled four days a week, I added a fifth day and progressed to the entire seven days.  

What about if you got back on track in a staggered way as in moderation on a few days and then back on track the other days?  Would that work for you?

Could you not weigh for a period of times.  The numbers made me bonkers.  It might be easier if you didn't know the numbers.  Just my $.02.  

When I got back on track after a length of time, I felt overwhelmed.  I broke it down into small chunks.  One of mine was grazing.  After a few failed attempts, I decided not to graze for four days a week.  After I handled four days a week, I added a fifth day and progressed to the entire seven days.  

What about if you got back on track in a staggered way as in moderation on a few days and then back on track the other days?  Would that work for you?

Could you not weigh for a period of times.  The numbers made me bonkers.  It might be easier if you didn't know the numbers.  Just my $.02.  

When I got back on track after a length of time, I felt overwhelmed.  I broke it down into small chunks.  One of mine was grazing.  After a few failed attempts, I decided not to graze for four days a week.  After I handled four days a week, I added a fifth day and progressed to the entire seven days.  

What about if you got back on track in a staggered way as in moderation on a few days and then back on track the other days?  Would that work for you?

Could you not weigh for a period of times.  The numbers made me bonkers.  It might be easier if you didn't know the numbers.  Just my $.02.  

When I got back on track after a length of time, I felt overwhelmed.  I broke it down into small chunks.  One of mine was grazing.  After a few failed attempts, I decided not to graze for four days a week.  After I handled four days a week, I added a fifth day and progressed to the entire seven days.  

What about if you got back on track in a staggered way as in moderation on a few days and then back on track the other days?  Would that work for you?

Could you not weigh for a period of times.  The numbers made me bonkers.  It might be easier if you didn't know the numbers.  Just my $.02.  

I'm so scared not to weigh myself for fear of gaining but I will try not to weigh for a week and see how it feels and how I do because you nailed it. That scale and I have a love hate relationship. I love to weigh but hate the numbers. It's like I expect to wake up one morning and be down 10 lbs lol. When I lost weight on my own I didn't have a scale and would go to my moms once a week to weigh. I found that it worked better because I would actually see loss instead of this crap of ups and downs and never remembering my starting weight for the week.

I've been working on getting my water in and so far so good. I'm getting about 4 cups or more a day in these days. Thank goodness. Before I really start waking up in the morning I drink about 2 cups of water then at night I drink another 2 cups. It's better than nothing I suppose but want to get back in the habit. The funny thing is that when I start my day off with water the coffee just doesn't taste as good to me and I crave the water. As a matter of fact I'm working on my 3rd cup this morning and it's only 8 am. Now keep in mind I've been awake since 4:30 but still!!! The coffee just doesn't taste the same.

I am having a small tummy day so I'm going to focus on not eating out of boredom. I have to figure something out I can do with my time when I'm bored so I'm not obsessing over food. I really need to start sewing or painting... something!!! I'm going to have a zillion paintings done by the time this winter is over lol. 

Hope everyone is having a wonderful day. Hugs 

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