Discouraged

I know it's water weight because there is no possible way I've gained 3 lbs in 2 days but here it is, that's what the scale says. I feel like I'm never going to lose this weight. I look pregnant and I'm scared to death to go to my inlaws wedding renewal tomorrow. If someone asks me when I'm due I think I'm going to hide in my house until I've lost all of my excess weight. I'm terrified to leave for anyone to see me because that simple question would break me. Today is day 8 of being back on track and tomorrow I have to worry about what to eat because I can't take my own food there and I'm not sure what's being served :'( I'm not going to eat before I go so that I'm making up for the calories I eat at the reception. I planned on dancing while I was there but now I'm doubting i will be doing that, who wants to see the fat girl shaking her a** on a dance floor? I have 60 lbs to loose and I'm not sure if I can do it. I'm going to cut my coffee out again until I can get some sweetner. I have sugar free syrups coming for my coffee in the next week or so. When they come I will start drinking my coffee again. Tomorrow I'm going to be very careful what I do and what I eat. I just need to lose this water weight and start losing the other weight. I want to be below 190 and right now as of today I'm 195 even. I'm hoping since I took my water pills tonight that I will weigh less tomorrow. I'm not holding my breath though because my body likes screwing with me like this. It's like every time I start to lose weight BAM I get it right back in a matter of a day or two and it never goes away just goes up. I'm tired of feeling like this, I'm tired of this excess weight, I'm tired of NOT being the biggest loser, I'm tired of being sick, Tired of being tired, Tired of struggling to do every day things. I'm tired of my back, knees, hips, and ankles hurting. Please tell me your stories and struggles so I know i"m not alone because alone is exactly how i feel right now

Im with you ~! I am discouraged as well. I have been eating all the right foods(3weeks) and even joined the gym(7 days so far) to get myself moving. and I have not lost a pound. I pissed off as hell. But i know that its not gonn afall off like it did in the begining. Hang in there sweetie, youve got this! We are here for ya! 

Me too girl me too... so angry!! I started at 199, mostly water, went down to 192.8 and back up to 195!!!! So tired of this roller coaster. I'm almost done with week two and i can't take this up and down. I feel like all of this is for nothing. I've dropped my calories even further. I'm down to between 600-800 calories a day now. Only eating lunch, dinner, and a small snack in the evening. I'm going nuts!! I hope I get over this hump and get below 190 cuz I won't believe it until I see it.

I know I was told to stay under 1000 calories a day. And i HAVE to keep reminding myself that its not gonna fall off like it did in the beginning.So I just keep doing what im doing and pray for the best. I am forcing myself to eat breakfast, then a healthy lunch and dinner and I do slip up and eat a few bites of stuff like cake or whatever but that just means I gotta move more! I am really trying to focus on NOT hating myself for slip ups. thats the worst for me. Its super hard to stay on track but WE GOT THIS GIRL!!! 

beating myself up and hating myself for slip ups are my biggest problem too. When I have a slip up it's terrible because I instantly want to give up and go back to my old habits... Which of course is so easy to do.

It is very easy. Thats why we are here in this fabulous group! Because we all go through it! Hang in there, you can do it!!!

I know it's hard, I struggle every day, too. Please don't beat yourself up. I have been doing some self hypnosis with positive affirmations. I say these affirmations to myself ALL day long. What the mind says, the body believes. I say, "I love myself, I enjoy my life, I do loving things for myself, I am good enough as I am". This helps me not beat myself up, and also helps me to be kind and loving to myself. Like I am my own best friend. Try it! Try to just have Fun and not dwell on the number on the scale. The more confidence and positivity you project, the more people will look at what an awesome person you are. Hugs!!

I'm going to try your suggestions. They are actually things that I did when I was thinner. The positive affirmations can make a huge difference. Thanks for the suggestions and remember you ARE good enough just as you are :D

Of course your discouraged!  Who wouldn't be with a 3lb gain!  That's OK, get good and pissed off.  It will help you stay the course.  I am not a happy camper today either.  I gained 1/2 lb over night.  Do you think the fat gods could cut me a break once?!?! Hell no!  So....back to protein shakes today.  Eyes looking forward not back. 

I am having one healthy meal in the evening and protein shakes the rest of the day including evening snack time.  It is the only thing that seems to work for me.

Pick your chin up and have fun at that damn party!  Make good food choices and dance!  Go to the middle where there are more people (LOL). 

If some ignorant a**H*** asks when you are due well gee I could offer a lot of responses here, none probably appropriate.  Shock them all and reply June!!!  Just kidding.  Just ignore them you can't fix stupid.

Have fun.  Let us know how the party went. We are all here rooting for you!!!

 

 

Thanks, i totally LOVE your attitude. I used to have that spark and boy do I  miss it!! SOmeone DID ask my husband if we were expecting but he yelled at the person and they went about their business far from me. :D I didn't do bad at the wedding. Stuck to meat and cheese, no pasta :D No dancing though. I'm actually not disappointed in that. I'm back to 194 still a far cry from 192.8. I know it doesnt' seem like that much weight but when you have gained it, well you know how that feels. I am mad VERY mad and I ordered matric chocolate protein powder that I'm going to put in my coffee. How many shakes a day do you do when You are doing shakes? I'm just curious because I'd like to try that a few days and see how it works. I'm desperate and willing to try just about anything. Hugs to you and thanks for the encouragement. :D