I'm so Lost and feel like a big failure.

Hi Jen, just wanted to congratulate you on hanging in there! We aren't perfect and sometimes we mess up but...as long as you get up and try again you never fail.  Failure is when I give up.  I totally understand the HELL of starting again.  Gee it seems like it took me forever to get my head out of my &&& and get busy.  I came really close (199lbs) to the scary 200lb mark also.  that was a wake up call.  Keep coming here.  Participate.  It is really helping me.   Good luck!!

Daily Mae it's really helping me too to be here!!! everyone here has a different persepective on how to get back on track and there is no judgement that you find in the other groups when you are having a hard time!!! It's nice to have support from others in my shoes! Today I did excellent again. I hit about 1000 calories and walked for 45 min.. yes i'm upping my walking time hehe. (I started at 20 min a day) I am now using skim milk in my coffee and was using sugar free syrup to sweeten it. i'm out so tomorrow it will be back to sugar but I'm going to order some more online so it is just going ot be a few days of sugar then back to the sweetener. And YES it was HELL starting again. i've been trying for months. But here it is I' doing it. One mroe day and it will be a week that i've been back on track, without beating myself up :D and there is no guilt. I'm easily staying below my burned calories for the day and I'm losing :D I'm down 5 lbs which I KNOW is mostly water weight but I can't imagine some of it isn't from losing real weight and i will take it :D I can't wait to be below 190. I'm at 193.4 right now so it's so close ;)

Today was a rough day. I ate some things that weren't real good for me but I didn't go over 1300 calories today. I know it's not ideal but tomorrow will be better. NO coffee at all tomorrow, I slacked on the water intake today but I still woke up at 192.8. I'm hoping all the nuts I ate today doesn't put tons of water weight back on me. I've been going through a lot of emotions and today I broke down and did a lot of emotional eating. I did do good because I bought a bunch of nuts to snack on and pita chips. I also bought enough salad to last me 4-5 days of lunches. I shouldn't be so hard on myself about today but I don't want to fall back into bad habits. I've done so good this past week i don't want to sabotage myself. I have a habit of doing that. I just have to stay strong and keep going at it. I'm going to plan my meals for tomorrow when I'm done here. It will be better tomorrow and I'm done eating for today :D I'm probably not going to be walking tomorrow because with wind chill it's going to be 10 below. UGH. BUT saturday I'm going to a wedding so going to dance my butt off literally to burn some calories Hehe I'm down 7 pounds ppl SEVEN pounds!!! I'm so excited!!! I'm not going to change my ticker until I have two days of 192 and I fear that tomorrow i will be back up because I ate so many nuts today and they are salty. Stupid water weight! Ok everyone thanks for the support. If I can do this so can you!!!