Thursday cardio and cafe.......

today has started out well.......already walked 2 miles and have my morning vits taken and downed 32 oz of water.  Getting my exercise, my vitamins, and water are not a problem for me.  I need to step back, reorganize and go back to basics to lose this regain weight !!!  I never felt fat at 340 pounds ( that is what I weighed for 30 years) but at 230 (regain of 30lbs.), I FEEL FAT !!!    Just need to get back in the game ! 

For some reason, I am back in the...."I will start next Monday mode" ....we have all been there.....I need to start today !!   What I really need to do is go to the grocery store and get the right foods in my house and spend some time on the weekend preparing for the week !!    Enough self-chastising.......but maybe putting it down for all to see, will kick me into gear !!

my eats for today....

breakfast..........turkey sausage and egg  coffee/Miralax

snack................cheese

lunch................chicken and salad

snack................cottage cheese

dinner...............turkey and veggies

snack.................SF pudding

i usually plan to eat well, but usually overeat......gotta get back on track !!

Have a great day !!

Hope you did well yesterday, Waysta.... I know how getting a "good day under our belt" can help.  Maybe today will be that day for me.  

I hear Ya about all that diet mentality crap, " starting on Monday...just eat this, and it will be gone..."  Thought I had left all that behind.   This certainly is a learning process every step of the way. As H.a.l.a. Said, practice makes perfect.  Imagine if we gave up and didn't keep trying...

We HAVE to keep trying or all this will be for nothing !!  I know some people personally who lost ALL their excess weight and have kept it off, and I know some who have gained it ALL back......then their are people like me that didn't lose all of it in the first place and now have started a regain cycle......my goal is to lose the regain weight and maintain at that weight !!  

I know I will never be "the skinny Minnie". I have always been "the big one" in my family and in my group of friends.  I weighed 180 in high school.  I have done it all to lose weight......every diet that came along, wiring my mouth shut, phen-fen, stomach stapling, hypnotizing, you name it, I have done it!!   I will continue the battle.  I WILL NOT allow myself to go back to where I was !!

just gotta go back to basics of protein first and get this weight off !!

I plan to have a great eating weekend and I hope you do, too !!

I know I will never be "the skinny Minnie". I have always been "the big one" in my family and in my group of friends.   

Law of universe tells you that what you belive in - will happen. This is a very same line i used to tell myself until one day i just stopped.  And i started telling myself that i can be  as skinny (or sucesfull or any other things that i doubt i could be if i really really wanted to)  as i choose to be. I wrote it down, i posted notes all over my house. On mirrors, on the fridge, on the microwave, everywhere....even on my doors that i had to go in and out of my house.  I kept those notes until my brain start thinking like that without the cards.  Probably 6 months or so.  

For me - if something is really important - i make sure i belive i can do it. Convince my brain and soul i can do it, and do it. 

At the same time, i can't be a petite lady....or 6ft tall super woman (i can if i get a lot of surgeries ).  Or not be near sighted.   So the reality is important.  I also don't want to be smaller than size 6 or less that 150 lbs.  I know i can. But i don't want to. It does not look good on me at my age. 

We sabotage ourselfs so often. Not believing - is IMO, the one that really hurts my effort.  Choosing not to - its ok. Knowing that i can and choose to compromise, is my trick to get to my goals. 

So true.