Thank goodness it was a secret!

Hey everyone, thank so much for the encouragement and suggestions.

Well I know you have been waiting with bated breath to hear how I've done and I hate to be the barer of bad tidings but I did horrible today!  Ok - not beating myself up and not quiting and being honest here.  That is my plan to have a better day tomorrow.  

I woke up this morning and just made a horrible decision and then the whole day followed.  I think for me it has a lot to do with fear.  I''m afraid of failing and I'm afraid of succeeding.  I mean I'm so used to feeling like a failure that it is comfortable.  Does that make sense to anyone?  Failure being comfortable - maybe just known.  Every time I am successful it is short lived and uncomfortable.  I've been overweight my entire adult life and I know how to do it.  I have lost weight multiple times but never been able to maintain it.  If I try again, I mean really try - will I just have a new failure to add to the others.

Oh I do get philosophical sometimes!  

Ok now lets get down to the real thing.  Tomorrow I will drink protein drinks, I will not eat sugar.  I will take my vitamins!  I will take my dog for a walk even if it is a short one.

Thanks again for everything.

Trudy... HUGS.. but as for drinking just protein drinks- I  find that supper hard. That's why typically start by cleaning my diet first and get off the carbs crazy wheel by eating food.. Stress of trying new foods - going back to basics and limiting eating "real" food is typically very hard for me. .. 

I would choose some decent breakfast - eggs+ cold cuts or bacon with some veggies. 

then I would have a snack of veggies + some meat or cheese

lunch - veggies again and some more proteins.. 

mid afternoon is when I crave carbs the most so some fruits and PB makes a snack.

Dinner (again - veggies and meat or fish) 

LNS - for me that is typically nuts ( I used to have cheese but I am allergic to dairy now)  

and so on.. 

I hope you can do the shakes - but for me - to start clean diet - it close to impossible doing just shakes. 

I am not planning today to have only drinks but I will have at least one.  I appreciate your suggestions and when I can get myself together I want to try to mimic it.  right now just hanging on by the fingernails.

The first two weeks are the hardest!

The first week I just started tracking everything I put in my mouth, just by knowing that I was going to have to account for it, made me cut back and make better choices, at the end of the week it showed exactly what I knew it would....too many carbs, too many calories, and not enough protein (and I still lost 3 lbs).   Seeing it in writing helped me get my mind around what I HAD to do if I wanted to lose the weight and keep it off. The second week, I came back to OH and got back on plan and keep myself accountable by posting my meals ect ...I still track everything that goes in my mouth, including water.

Bottom line, find what will work for you and keep at it until you get where you want to be :)