Monday, January 20th, Cardio & Cafe

Good Morning Botters:

For those of you sleeping in this morning  take that.....For all of us who had to come in to work glad you made it out of bed.  I had a good weekend but a bad calorie evening last night but I am on the correct trail this morning.  My eats for today are:

Breakfast:  Coffee & Miralax

Snack:  Protein Shake

Lunch:  Protein Bar

Snack:  Protein Shake

Dinner:  Lean Pocket

Snack:  Vitatop

Exercise:  Bike

I need a little detoxing today to get those sugar carbs out of my system from last night.  I do hope everybody that got the holiday today are enjoying their day off.  Please remember those to take your vits and drink those fluids.  Have a good one.

Good morning Tess. I have to work.. ugh... But the weather is nice for a change... so at least that is a bonus.  My weekend eating vise was OK.  The "crud" I have and the meds made eating rather difficult.  I was not hungry all weekend.. and if I ate - I only could eat a cup or even less. Not sure if everything inside me was swollen.. but I am sure my throat was swollen so I had to make sure I chew my food to mash, and even with that some food just would not go down..  Eating and breathing through your mouth has its challenges... and if even little of food ended up in my wind pipe it was over for me... I was hungry but eating was such a chore... I still was able to eat some food...mostly proteins and veggies.

Every day there is an improvement how I feel, but it will probably take another week for me to be fully healed. Even walking too fast leaves me breathless..and makes me cough.. so still no exercise (except walking in the mall)  last few weeks. I am ready for this to be over... 

Asfor today  :

coffee x2

tea with lemon

stick sausage and cucumber salad 

L: ch****n + veggies

nuts

dinner: probably some meat and creamed spinach.. 

LNS: jello with blackberries + whipped cream. maybe nuts. 

I am going for a session of acupuncture and I hope she can fix me up .. (sinuses and lungs) 

Hi Hala:

Sounds like you are on the down side of this crud.  I hope you will be feeling yourself by the end of the week.  At least, not much eating should take care of your extra few pounds.  Take care.

Finally made it to GNC and got some Quest Bars.  I haven't had one for a while.

EATS

Early Morning:  2 cups coffee w/SF hazelnut creamer

B:  Peanut butter & apple butter on whole wheat

S: none

L:  Veggie Beef Stew, 24 RF Wheat Thin crackers, apple

S:  Quest Protein Bar

D:  1 Slice of a large pepperoni pizza

S:  none

TOTALS:  1443 calories, 69g Protein 

WEIGHT:  Pre-Op: 302, Current: 192 (Height:  5’ 7”)

I got a little off track over the weekend, not super bad, but I had some not great moments.  I knew I was going to go to a friends house to "watch" (chit chat with the other mom and chase my kids) the game and there would be pizza, so I did 45 minutes on the elliptical yesterday before the party, I will be doing the same today.  Back on track with my eating today.  

Coffee, coffee and a touch more coffee

Breakfast- Plain Greek yogurt, a dab of fig butter for sweetness and a sprinkle of Grape nuts for crunch.

Lunch- one skewer of chicken-got a box of them frozen at Trader Joe's-it was good I baked them before I left for work this morning.

Snack- protein shake made with almond milk

Dinner will probably be another skewer of chicken and some steamed green beans.  

I forgot to take my vitamins before I left the house this morning!  I have been really pushing the water today too, I feel a bit bloated.  

We may be getting a Trader Joe's in my neck of the woods.  I am so excited!!!!

Ours just opened in the fall, I like it a lot, but it's not as good as Wegmans!  

My weekend was spent chasing after Grandkids plus a whole lot of sitting in the car traveling.  It was a very good weekend with only a little bad eating.  Shared a cupcake and ice cream with a granddaughter, only had a couple of small bites of each, because she wouldn't let me have any more, and that satisfied my craving for the treat and my inner want to eat like everybody else.    

Already took my vits.........

my eats for today........

breakfast coffee and miralax

snack.........1/2 protein shake

lunch..........1/2 protein shake, 3oz. Chicken and 1/2 cup veggies

snack..........apple with peanut butter

dinner..........chicken stir fry 

i hope everyone has a great day !

I was up at regular time but I thoroughly enjoyed being able to savor my coffee in front of the tv this morning. (Couldn't tell you what was on but it was enjoyable). It's been a busy weekend but I've been able to do quite a bit of reflecting and the mental work that is sometimes necessary with getting back on track successfully. I am a comfort food eater.

This entire past year has been one continual emotional roller coaster ride and I've turned to food as my constant companion and comforter. There have been and will continue to be a lot of stressors in my life that are out of my control. I will simplify the things that I can and let go of some others. My challenge in letting go is not to grab on to them after they've been released. My biggest challenge (as I see it) is my 9 year old kid-ette (step daughter). She has always been different from other kids and this past year we finally got a diagnosis of ADHD and Aspergers. There will always be challenges. I'm the sort of mom who wants to "fix" things and right the wrongs of humanity. Truthfully I'm the step-mom so she's only under my direct care every other weekend. It's hard to see progress in that limited amount of time. I have so many fears and worries about her future. There in lies the problem-----I'm not a worrier. Never have been. It's foreign to me. So every other weekend I end up eating myself into oblivion because I don't know what else to do. Kid-ette lacks some very basic life skills (personal hygiene, feeding herself, dressing herself, appropriate communication) you get the picture. But she can go online and set up a watch list on e-bay for anything in the world. Repeat entire movie scripts from movies that she's seen only once or twice. It's frustrating. Add to that the fact that my dear husband is in complete denial that anything is wrong. She's his baby girl. He wants her to be normal in every way possible and has been very hesitant to consider special ed (there's no doubt she's smart) but she needs something more than a standard classroom. Mom tried homeschooling last year but the lack of socialization on a regular basis seemed to be isolating her even more. Not to mention when Kid-ette doesn't want to do something she can manipulate with the very best of them.

Let me refocus...I'm not blaming the kid-ette for my problems. How I handle the stress is what causes my problems and that is 100% within my control to make better, healthier choices and find better coping mechanisms that food.

This morning, I've done some meal planning and prepping for the week to come. I've been looking at the mason jar salads on pinterest for months. I've got everything to make the next 4 days of those with grilled chicken and beans for extra protein. I'm soaking some black beans to put in the crock pot tomorrow for a black bean chili with ground turkey that looks phenomenal. And breakfasts for the rest of the week that are refrigerated overnight oatmeal with greek yogurt, nuts and fruit.

Tonight I'm headed out to dinner with 3 of my closest friends. We've been through thick and thin since Jr. High. Can't wait to see where we end up. They pick the best places with some of the healthiest menus ever. (One friend is diabetic, one is a health fanatic and the other runs marathons for fun) I'll let you know tomorrow where we land.

Thanks for enduring my rant.

- Iris

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