I'm a bad, bad, girl

I will not depress anyone with how terribly I have been eating. I was back on track since October and lost 12 in 4 weeks, but got sick and started back with dr. pepper and carbs, then back on track, and now back off. Not good at all. So I have resolved to start back on Jan 1, I know, I know, It is an excuse to eat and drink more soda for a few more days-yes I know. Still, that is my plan. So starting back on track Jan. 1 and not looking back. On a lighter note, I know that 2014 will be awesome!!!!!!!!!!

Hugs... And good luck. 

Promising myself I start next Monday, or the 1st of the month, or for sure Jan 1st..... Got me one time all the way up 250 lbs... Now when I realized that I need to change my way of eating I just do it.  Not Monday, next day, the 1st.... I just start with the next meal.  I try to make even small changes (give up diet soda or chips ) then the next meal is better, and so on. 

I still have meals or days that I know i did not follow my plans... But when I really realize that and I decided I need to do better - I no longer wait even a day to improve. 

Btw - I plan to have a small get together in my house - and there will be lots of wine and food but i know i will be on my plan. No wine, proteins and veggies and maybe I will have a small bowl of berries with whipped cream or a piece of dark chocolate.... But that would be it. I already gained 5 lbs this season and only last week I already lost 1. So 4 more to go plus I want to lose 10 more. (Or at least 5 more).  

Why wait? Do it now. Don't wait till Jan 1st. If you need to - give yourself permission to "be bad" on  eve Dec 31st, if you plan to do celebration anyway. One meal not 3 full days. 

Hugs

Hello,

I'm new to the board.  Had a lap band 09/06/06, did well until about a year ago, the first year I fills and lost 100 + pounds, then had a bad experience when I had an "overfill" on a Friday where I couldn't even ge****er down on Saturday and had to go to ER, 100 + miles away.  The DR. on call knew nothing about lapbands, after 8 pokes and 4 bent needles he finally hit the port and managed to get out .5 cc....I didn't see a Dr. for about 5 years after that, changed surgeons.  I had started throwing up with almost any solid protein, that's when the "slider foods"  started sneaking in and the 40 pounds started sneaking on.  Had an EGD done, I had ulcers and the ulcers were causing swelling and the stoma was almost closed so my band was emptied, WOW !  I could eat a bacon cheeseburger for the first time in 6 + years !!!  You can guess the rest of the story...

Anyway, my new surgeon says I have to have a revision to a RNY, due to some very stressful things going on for my best friends life right now it will have to be put off for 2-3 months so this morning I decided to start on my own again.  My highest weight was 240 when I had the lapband, lowest was 135, this morning was 173.4.  

Another thing I don't understand, Before I had the EGD, I had an A1C done, it was 6.5, so I was told I was told I was diabetic. put on Metformin, then told, STOP taking it, your kidneys aren't quite good enough, put on Glyburide.  OK...A1C has been 5,  problem is I think I have developed Reactive Hypoglycemia, my sugars have been dropping into the 40's AFTER eating...I quit my Glyburide and haven't gone over 122 on my sugars :-)   Haven't told my PCP yet :-)

Sorry for the  "novel'  Onward and hopefully DOWNWARD on the scale that is !!!

 

Do what you have to do to be healthy.........take care of you first and foremost........we can think we are doing great and suddenly we are in a downhill spiral......don't worry about the scale......health first........take care !

Welcome aboard.  You definitely need to take care of your health first so that you will be at your best when you do have a revision.  Posting your diet daily will help you get structure to your eating and will give you a jump start for when the revision will take over.  Good luck to you.

rnin2011.  I have to agree with Hala.  It is so easy to say I will start next week, Jan. 1st or even tomorrow.  If I eat bad at one meal then I immediately eat better at the next meal.  I gain 3 lbs. over the Christmas holidays but the day after Christmas, I immediately started eating better.  Then on Friday I got back on schedule like I normally eat and this morning those 3 lbs. are gone.  You can do this too!  Remember, every day, every hour, every minute is a new chance to start over again.  Look how many calories you will save just by eating right at the next meal time.  I am cheering you on.  Start today!

Thanks all, I took the advice and did start again yesterday. In fact I noticed I had been feeling really poor and I attribute it to going back to carbs and soda. So yesterday I had my chicken breast strips, but I still consumed some soda. I have to go back to the store and re-stock soon because I am out of my foods (chicken, cheese sticks, bottles of water). I guess if I put it off until Wednesday to re-start, I may be tempted to put it off even longer, plus there will be even more to lose. Thanks for giving it to me like it truly is, and not "sugar coating" it! Sometimes I need a reality check!

Great JOB!!!   Even changing one thing may make a difference. HUGS!!! 

I don't post daily, but I read posts every other day or so.. and try to post some on weekend when Tess is not doing that (Tess is so amazing) 

I am not perfect but if I get off the wagon - I try to jump right back on it, forgive myself (it too me a while to stop bashing myself for some choices I made) and continue on a right path.