Wednesday, October 23rd, Cardio & Cafe

Well I am definitely not ready for any snow!  Y'all keep that down there with you.  Good job at the concession stand.  How about baking those "fried" potatoes?  Little changes can make a big difference.  Have a great day!

Good morning BOTTs.

Happy Hump Day!

It's not even close to chilly here yet, still wearing short sleeves and capris.  Not even at 6:30 this morning when I went out to feed the horses.  I love when it's cold enough to see "smoke" coming out of their noses early in the mornings. 

Breakfast:  protein shake

Snack:  turkey jerky

Lunch:  protein shake

Snack:  protein bar

Dinner:  tilapia and spinach

Snack:  s/f jello and a protein shake later if I absolutely must.

My days are great but my night times have been beyond challenging.  I am up almost 3 pounds and I know it's because recently in the evenings, I become a different person.  This person is an eating machine.       Ignoring it isn't working, obviously.  It's very frustrating because I feel better due to the exercise and I know that I've been doing much better with my water, and the 5DPT wasn't too difficult.   And now because of that, I am sabotaging myself?  WTH ?!   Okay....the cat's out of the bag.  I've admitted it out loud to myself and anyone else *****ads this.  It's real.   I need a lot of self-talk today to get my brain back engaged.  This isn't a short term goal, it's my life.  Believe me, I am not trying to sound whiney...and it's not like I don't know why the pounds are coming back.  Too many calories of the wrong choices going in.  I wasted way too many years feeling crappy about myself because of my weight, emotionally I am feeling that way again.  I need to make this my screeching halt and stay back on track, around the clock.   

Have a great day, friends. 

Gaby

Congratulations for letting the cat out of the bag...now that it's out, Let's tame it!!! Self-Talk is AWESOME. Take it a step further. Post it notes, index cards, visual aids of any sort....PUT THEM EVERYWHERE.  If the evenings are a challenge - declare the kitchen off limits as soon as dinner is finished. Get a closed sign and post that sucker right smack in the middle of the entry way.  A motivational picture on the fridge will make you stop and think before you reach in and pull out a poor/impulse decision. Same thing with the pantry.

Cookies are my weakness. David loves them for dessert with his lunch. Our compromise is I buy them every Sunday afternoon when I do my weekly grocer shopping but they never come upstairs. They go directly to the trunk of his car and then into his work Van on Monday morning. Win-Win.

You're not whining....your winning.

- Iris

Great info Iris.  Thank you for sharing how you cope with cookies!  (I share that weakness as well!)  I think a motivational picture on the fridge is a great idea.  Also, the kitchen being off limits may have to be a cold hard rule to get me past this hurdle. 

I love the interaction of this board!!!  It has gotten so active and helpful.  What a wonderful bunch of people!

Here's to winning, Iris.  "clink" of our water bottles!

I love the picture on the refrigerator idea.  I use to have a picture of me in a yellow sweatsuit at 300 lbs. (no one should wear yellow at that weight)  Boy did that get me to think twice before I opened that door.

I have two of those, Tess.  One of me in a ratty robe, curlers in my hair, over 300 lbs and holding a big spoonful of spaghetti and meatballs near my mouth.  The other one has me eating, looking stuffed and miserable with my stomach wedged against the kitchen table.  Great reminders of what was and what could be again, if I'm not diligent.

Hi Gaby:  I will confess, the first time I did the 5 day pouch test I lost 7 lbs.  As an award for doing so well, I ate some bad carbs and regain 4 lbs. in two days.  What's up with that.  I had basically starved and my body wanted an award and I gave in.  Before you give in tonight, ask yourself "how are you going to feel in 30 minutes"?  Or give in, eat 2 bites and flush the rest down the toilet.  Some times home is the battlefield where the war is not always won but many battles are fought and victory can be found.  I once spray air freshener on a cupcake because I wanted to eat it and didn't want to give in but sometimes I just say what the hey, eat it and start immediately over at that minute.  I try not to let it set the tone for the rest of the day or night.  When you feel weak, call a friend or your child and talk.  It will help.  Here to your success today!

Thanks for sharing, Tess.  Isn't it ridiculous what a battle it can be????  I think that (subconsciously) I have been rewarding myself with food in the evenings.  Good idea to make myself think about how I will feel 30 minutes later...heck..or 5 minutes later with the way I have been at it!  I totally agree with the flushing or destroying of the culprits!!  I know exactly how you felt when you sprayed the air freshener on the cupcake!  If you didn't ruin it at that very second, it would have found it's way to your mouth.  A naturally skinny person would think we are nuts for going to the extremes that we have to go to from time to time.  haha

Food is insanely powerful.  But....like you said "Some times home is the battlefield where the war is not always won but many battles are fought and victory can be found."  What a great quote!  We ARE more powerful than our unhealthy urges.  I will focus on reaching out rather than reaching for bad carbs to stuff in my mouth.  I appreciate your time very much.

This board is a Godsend.

I agree on the quote, Gaby.  Tess...that was quite profound!  Very, very inspirational.  I'm going to put that on my PC and the fridge.

Hi Gaby

You can do this! Have you tried to do some kind of activity, or keep yourself busy during those times you notice you are snacking?  I have been trying to keep myself busy with cleaning or doing stuff around the house so I don't go to the fridge.  Or if I allow myself to snack, I pull out that no fail Sugar Free Jello and have a cup..or two :) Maybe you could find something you will allow your self, greek yogurt or something, so you don't feel bad when you have a snack?  You are doing the right thing by acknowledging it!  Keep it up, you CAN do this :)