ASHAMED TO SAY...BUT I AM BACK

ashamed to say that cause I left in the first place...I feel lost...I (think) know what I am suppose to be doing (eating low carb) but I am not sticking to anything...and every day I say ok Kim tomorrow u have to do this.. but it's like watching a movie clip OVER and OVER . I also think it is more than low carb... I keep thinking to my self  how can you survive on 1200 calories a day...( i know i can) but is it I don't want to...)

I think in my head I have messed up "stomach" I can eat way more than I am suppose to be and the "fat girl " in me is always saying well maybe that is not enough (on my plate) so I fix more...and then as soon as that is done " I get the munchies" what the hey is wrong with me.!! Sometimes I don't even realize  that I am doing this...it's like I am on a mission.... The worst part is I am teaching my babies this...

Anyone else went through this? I have easily  gained  back 40 lbs and I FEEL horrible mentally I feel like a mess. Physically I can't get into my cute clothes.  (refuse to buy more) I don't want to give up on my self ...I am NOT exercising , I say I am going and don't ..I am just not motivated. simple as that...

I don't want to up set anyone with my post ..just something I am going though ..BUT if I could get help anywhere I am hoping I find SOME here.

thanks for reading ...

Kim

 

Hi Kim

 

You sound like a clone of me.  I am having the same issues.  Every day I plan to "eat healthy" and every day I fail at it.  I worry that I won't get enough food to keep hunger away and then when the hunger is gone, I keep eating until I'm uncomfortable (which is a big no-no!). My clothes are starting to get a little tight and I really must get back on track.  I KNOW that this is all up to me and I have to get off my big butt and "just do it".  I have a binge eating disorder and have been in therapy for it and it didn't do much for me.  So every day I struggle with my brain "eat it, don't eat it" etc.  Every day I feel like I am out of control.  

I'm afraid I don't really have any advice for you, but wanted you to know you are NOT alone in this! For some of us, the struggle is small. For others, like you and I, it's a daily thing and we need to fight it with everything we've got most of the time.

I'll be keeping an eye on this post to see if anyone has any suggestions to help you (and me) out.

I sat here and wanted to cry...I don't feel sorry for my self but i do wish something would click for me in my head.... coming back here I know will help...just to have support...sure it is easy to tell someone "just don't do it"  I WI**** WAS THAT EASY JUST TO NOT DO IT...

I WILL KEEP THE SAME EYE OUT FOR YOU!

AND THANKS A BUNCH!

KIM

 

oh...you are me!!!  I took control of my living last year...but i did it in steps.  1..stopped smoking 6 months later 2 stopped diet pepsi when to Crystal Light 1 month later 3 Drinking only water. Gave myself about 5 months of those 3 changes until I was sure it had all "stuck".  

Step 4, ate at meals, only healthy foods, no more fried, high sugar etc...did that for 2 months then the big one Step 5 began to measure and count all food that went in my mouth.  A nutritional website stated to take your current weight times 12 and then knock off 1000 calories to loose 2 lbs per week....250 x 12 -1000 = 3000, that's 3000 calories that I could eat DAILY!!  I did that for a month and you will be surprised just how much food that is.  Good quality food! The next step was to cut to 1300 calories per day, continuing to measure and log all food but I through in walking.  

You will be surprised after you give yourself time after each step that the mind does reset.  I found that measuring and logging my food it kept my mind focused on my goal.  Which is to LIVE TO LIVE!

I also did not weigh myself or

You aren't alone. Everyone has struggled, some much much more than others. One suggestion is to change one thing at a time, doing it all at on e can be way to overwhelming! Maybe start with calories. then decide what. perhaps instead of starting out at 1200 calories, find our where you are and just drop 100 a week. Then next goal exercise. Aim for 10 minutes of exercise a dayinstead of 30, increase it every week. If full plate is an issue, make a goal high volume lower calorie foods. If snacking is an issue, plan snacks times and plan ideas for lots good choices, don't have bad choices on hand. Basically decide what small change you want to make, decide the steps you'll take to make it, think if all the barriers and how to get rid of them. Any small step take will help build confidence for the next step. Hang in there, be kind to yourself!

Hi Kim:  

 

So glad that you are back.  You have received some excellent advise from the above posters.  Some times we need to concentrate on the small changes to appreciate seeing the larger ones emerge.  Just change one thing that you know you can and as that becomes a pattern then change another.  Like Deb did, do it in steps.  I know 40 lbs. sounds like a lot to get back off but you can.  If I can get 70 lbs. off again you can to, but it has to be your decision, no one elses.  

Tess YOU are always a great supporter!

I was just thinking ...I actually never made it to my goal of 180 so i really have like 60 lbs to loose 1st the 40 ...then to goal ..

OK 

TODAY I AM STARTING TO COUNT CARBS...WHICH FOR ME IS A BIG STEP...BUT ONE STEP...

THIS WILL ELIMINATE SWEETS AT NIGHT...( I WILL HAVE TO TAKE THEM OUT THE HOUSE)

AND I WILL TRY TO TAKE IN THE PROPER AMOUNT OF WATER ... GOING TO TRY TO START DOING ZUMBA AGAIN..

NEXT MONTH  WILL ADD OR CHANGE SOMETHING ELSE WILL USE YOU GUYS EXAMPLES ...

YOU ARE A BREATH OF FRESH AIR....

We are all here for one another, Kim.  Please visit and post often, and know that you are definitely NOT alone.  Take care :)

You can do this Kim! If you need someone to talk to, email me. It's all about support!