Hello, my name is Brittany and I suck at using my tool.

The first step to solving a problem...admitting, correct?

Here I go.

I am a very stressful and low point in my life.  I am really struggling with depression and do not want to admit and am resistant to medication.

I never made the lifestyle changes after surgery, which account for my less than stellar weight loss and current nutritional deficiencies.  I didn't tolerate water, ketosis, protein shakes, lactose, or vitamins after surgery which lead to pretty not doing anything that I was supposed to.

I had maintained at 150-153 for quite sometime.  I got up to 158 and can not seem to get the labs back off.  I am logging and staying within calories, making better choices.  Its been 1 step forward, 2 steps back at getting it off.

I am taking my supplements fairly regularly.

I had started seeing a counselor through EAP at work.  We have only had a few session, but I have made some discoveries and been diagnosed with adult ADHD which explains some things.  I am contemplating medications for this as well, but somewhat reluctant.  I really need to deal with my head issues and stop eating my emotions.

I know I need to feel some of these emotions of frustration and defeat and move on to working through it.  I am feeling better, but still have those times when I just feel stuck and unable to move forward.

I am posting in hopes of advice from any of you who have went through counseling for depression or food addiction and what exercises were helpful for you.

You're not alone, Brittany.  I sucked at using mine too!  I had my surgery in 2003, lost 99 pounds, and have regained 60!  Not a real good track record!

I'm sorry about your depression and ADHD issues.  I hope that you will continue to seek help for that, in whatever way you determine to be best for you.  Congratulations on trying to nip the weight regain in the bud!  That is what I should have done and did not!  I couldn't accept that it wasn't going to be as "magical" as the first year or so.  I just thought the weight would come back off.  I started eating wrong and just doing things the way I always did pre-WLS, and that was so very wrong.

Just remember to give yourself credit for what you are trying to do now.  I think it's great you're taking charge of these problems.  I don't have any specific advice as to counseling/food addiction therapy, as I have not gone through those, but perhaps it's something we could all use!  I'm sure there will be others here who can post about their experiences as well.

Best wishes to you!

Carla

Thanks for the support Carla.  Hoping that we can all get back on track together:)

Congratulations!!  You have taken great steps to recover your sanity!  I have been on anti-depression meds for years...as well as my hubby.  Don't shy away from taking the meds because it just means your system isn't providing your brain with the chemicals it needs to allow you to function!  If you had a heart condition, you would take the meds and not think twice!  We have been condition to think of depression medications as us not being able to control our emotions and that is not the case at all!  It is a chemical imbalance and thank the Lord we have intelligent people that figured that all out!

As far as the "tool", we all suck at using it hence the reason we are on the Back on Track Together board...:)  Just remember, keep moving, log what you are eating and drink lots of water.  The whole idea is to LIVE!  Live and live long...;)

Thanks for your support.  That is exactly what I would tell my family members about depression, but for some reason Ilike to erroneously think that I can control it!?!?  We are always our worst critics.

Here is to loging, exercising and drinking...water that is!!!