Same Song (I've lost count of the verses)

Hi again BOTTers.   

I had open  in Nov. of 2006.  I was a poster child for the surgery.  I followed every rule and was super successful.  I went from 356 to 168.  Wow almost 190 pounds.  This required my utmost focus.  I had to work very hard at it even with surgery.  Then my husband went into end stage renal failure and began dialysis and I lost my focus and began eating emotionally again.  I forgot every rule I ever followed. 

Now I'm still an emotional eater but I am trying to get my focus back.  My hubby had lap VSG on Wed.  He is trying to loose enough weight to qualify for a kidney transplant.  So he is on liquids.  I'll just join him and eat like him and get myself back on track.

One thing I know about myself - other than I have to really spend time and attention to my weight loss/eating/exercise - I am a great planner and not a great follow througher (I know it isn't a word but you get the meaning).  So I have to plan to follow through.  

I've purchased acceptable protein drinks.  I don't think there is a Good one.  I am going to rejoin the gym and I'm going to join here and talk to people I know understand how I feel.  And help me stay focused on ME!

Thanks for listening and I'll be making myself accountable to you all.

Great board, Trudylea.  I'm a newbie here too, and everyone I've encountered has been so friendly and understanding, so you are not alone.  Welcome!

Trudylea, I am pretty much a lurker on this site.  My story is very similar to yours.  Husband had surgery, asperated, pneumonia, ventilator, trach.   He spent 15 weeks in hospitals/rehabs.  I stayed with him 24/7. I lived out of vending machines.  No exercise.   He is home now and doing pretty good.  He is almost 80.

I like your word "forcus."  I am the same way.  I have to make my weight and health my main concern or I slip and fall.  I am trying to get back on track, but I keep slipping up.  I just can not seem to keep myself focused.  If you have any ideas, please tell me how.  Husband does not need to lose weight and needs to eat healthy.

I have gained enough till my pants do not fit.  I am only 5'1"  Every pound makes a difference on a short person.

Good luck and God Bless.

Ruby

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To me focus means that I have to pre plan my meals.  I have to commit to exercise and I have to plan it on my calendar.  I have to stay active talking to others on their journey and I have to track my food.  Even then i might slip up.  For me, I also have to journal for me saying stuff helps.

I went back and read my blog post from my first year post op.  I was so...optimistic and...niave.  

So I am here again today. 

Thanks for the reply.  My plan is pretty much like yours, but it is tough.  The only way I have ever been able to lose weight even with surgery was to make it the most important thing in my life.  I wish I could get really motivated.  I have tried joining weight lose support groups, but nothing seems to give the motivation I need.  Sure wish I had some of the 'honeymoon' feeling we got right after surgery.  lol

Good luck with your journey.

Ruby

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Amen!  I miss that not really being all that interested in food!

You are so right.  I have lost 100 pounds four times in my life and everytime it had to be my number one priority and that is so hard for me to maintain on a all the  basis.  You would think that the healthy habit would become a habit but that hasn't happened for me.  I mean after by surgery I was on for two  years.  

Stick with it Ruby and don't give up.  I'm looking at needing to loose 100 pounds again!

I'm right next to you in that boat.  I went from 366 lbs to 185 and regained back to 307 lbs.  I've been back on track since 1/18/13 and have lost 17 lbs.  We can do this!

One last comment on this 'focus' thing.  I would give my eye teeth to have the 'High' we had after surgery.  I guess part of it is success makes us happy and get excited.  Now I can not seem to make it through one day without messing up.  I am starting tomorrow trying to live one day at a time and not think beyond the minute I am in.

I walked my usual two miles and went to a Silver Sneakers class.  I enjoy both.  After class I came home and fixed a frozen pizza for my husband for lunch.  Sorry to say I ate my share of the pizza.  Most of the food I should be eating do not satisfy me.  If I eat protein bars, I can not stop with one if there is more than one in the house.  I have to buy one at a time.

Enough 'poor me' talk.  Tomorrow is another day.  I am to attend the funeral of a dear friend.  Hope I can keep my face out of the food bag.

Ruby

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Congrats!

Hi Trudy:

I posted earlier today but do not see it.  Welcome aboard.  With good planning you can get back to where you want to be.  Take it one day at a time and you will succeed.  Good to have you here.