4 years out and suddenly gaining weight, ugg!

I had my RNY bypass surgery over four years ago and had maintained my weight loss all that time.  I went from 315 lbs to 123 lbs.  The past few months we have been under a lot of stress and I have turned to putting anything in my mouth that I can find and have gained 27 lbs.  I am sick about it.  I haven't been exercising, counting calories, waiting to eat after and before meals, nothing.  I have been going through a severe depression so I am usually up a few hours in the am and then back to bed for the rest of the day.  I am sooo disappointed in myself.  I promised myself that once I got the weight off I would never gain it back and here I am.  I want to start walking again but I can't go alone.  I'm having anxiety problems when I leave the house.  I have asked my husband togo with me and he says he will but then he doesn't.  He has been buying me treats too like chips, diet coke, and such.  I know he isn't intentionally trying to make me gain, he thinks he is trying to cheer me up (that's what always worked in the past before surgery).  He really is supportive but right now I am feeling overwhelmed by everything.  I need help to get back on track and get this weight off.  I would rather die than get as big as I was before.  Right now I am hating myself pretty bad.

WOW! you've come a long way, that is a ot of weight to lose. You did it before, what's stopping you now? I know from personal experience how hard it is to get yourself out of depression when your feeling low. Work on one thing at a time, I too suffer from anxiety and life in general can be over whelming. I decided to see a professional and it has helped tremendously, not saying that you have to do the same but I will tell you she taught me a breathing technique for when I'm feeling anxious. Breath in 4 times and out 5, repeat as needed, it really works! Work on one thing at a time, rather it be your diet, exercise, just getting out of the house for 20 min. what ever it may be that will help you. Remember YOU are priority, If your not healthy you cannot take care of anyone else! Come on 23 pounds is nothing compared to what you have already lost. Get your vitamin D and Iron checked, my Iron was extremely low and I had to get infusions for 8 weeks, it made a huge difference in how I felt.

I'm right there with you. I gained 30 lbs. I have come on to this site and erased my post so many times because of shame. I'm here for you. Had my surgery in March 2007 & could just KICK myself. There's a lot of self-loathing going on, but that is sooo counter productive. I have taken baby steps by walking my pup for 1 mile a day...now I am up to 3. I have to deal with the food issue, but it's one baby step at a time. I hope that you can try to start too, in tiny steps-so as not to overwhelm yourself. Let's all do ourselves a B-i-g  favor & just try. Okay?

Me, too. Four years out but I never got as low as everyone else. I was 325 lbs. and my lowerst EVER was 175. I was there for just a minute then I started gaining again. I'm up to 215.

I'm depressed as well. Divorced, forced to move to a tiny shack with my kids, broke, in debt. I can't afford to eat right. I don't have the give-a-damn to exercise. I hate myself and my life right now, too. I made myself all the promises you did and here I am.

People look at me and you can tell their faces say "She's getting fat again." Doctors are yelling at me, family are looking me up and down, co-workers are watching ever thing I place in my mouth, and I haven't had a man so much as look my way since I divorced two years ago. 

My kids don't deserve this and DD has put on about 40 lbs. She's going to catch up to me soon if she doesn't make some serious change...IF she can.

I don't know where to begin to get 'back on track.' Maybe I was never on track to begin with. The weight just came off in the beginning. Now I'm back to having to starve myself to lose weight.

Sorry to vent on your post. Just feeling your pain. Where do we start?

 

 

good afternoon. i just read your post and i must say you sound pretty much like my story. We are always so hard on ourselves its incredible. A few days ago i was going nuts/anxious because i had gained 10 lbs so of course the cookie jar was calling my name again! What really help me focus is coming back to basics, write what you eat, no matter what you got to write it down. That helped me so much! I also read post of "what did you eat today?" and that gives me ideas of what to eat as snacks - cause this is my downfall! I truly think that life goes so fast that we tend to go with the flow, and keep going like the energizer bunny, but reality is we need to focus on what/who is important and Sybul that is US, you and I.Take a deep breath! Im sure you have all your documentation from the surgery, hospital discharge papers, eating program? Take time for you, sit down get yourself a nice coffee and read. You will see the amazing journey  you are on, the accomplishment and the reward you got from taking a wonderful decision in having WLS. You went from 315 to 123 all i have to say to that is OMG!!! right on!!! omg!! you