Wednesday, August 8th, Cardio & Cafe

 Happy Hump Day Botters:

Question for today:  Are we ever really satisfied with our results?  I think I could look like Jennifer Ainston and still not be happy.  I don't think that reaching your weight goal or having all the plastic surgery you want will really give you that satisfaction from deep inside.  I have people tell me all the time have great I look but I look in the mirror and see an old woman looking back with saggy thighs and wide hips and flapping arms.  Why can't I see what everybody else sees?  How do you feel about it?  What do you see?  Sorry for the commentary this morning, I guess I am just in a mood....

My eats for today are:

Prebreakfast:  Coffee & Miralax
Breakfast:  Oatmeal
Snack:  Quest Brownie Bar
Lunch:  Pure Protein Bar
Snack:  Quest Brownie Bar
Snack:  Special K Strawberry Crisp
Dinner:  Roast Beef in Pita Bread
Snack:  Vitatop

Hot today so I do not know if I will get a walk in today or not.  Don't forget your vits and fluids.

Great Day to be Alive  & Hi to all my fellow BOTTs

Tess - in a nutshell, usually I'm OK with were I am, BUT (big BUT), I still see ALL my flaws when I look in the mirror, I think it is just mostly human nature to be more critical of yourself than others are of you...And I think pretty much ALL women & an occasional metro-male, go thru this... Afterall why else would SO many people choose plastics or dermabrasion or tucks or high dollar skin potions & we've been trying to find the fountain of youth so we could look better to ourselves for about a thousand years ...

Yesterday was looking good until those damn sugar cookies @ my HOG meeting called me over...Still managed to hold my own on the scale this a.m...But know that today is about really staying focused on "towing the line"

Breakfast  :  protein coffee ( yeah me, I put down that breakfast cookies that kept whispering)
Snack  :  protein wafer bar with chunky PB on top ( made a good substitute for the b-cookies)
Lunch  :  greek yogurt with sf caramel sauce, kashi go lean for crunch, a little banana & almonds
Snack  :  2 small link sausages and a cheese stick
Dinner  :  protein shake with banana, chocolate & pb2
Cardio  :  ZUMBA

Have an awesome day to everyone

Hey All,

I really have to work on accepting myself for
who I am. I still have extra weight and the
sagging skin and I get down about myself a lot.
I'm working on looking at the positives.

breakfast-3 coffees w/ ff 1/1 & 1/2
lunch-turkey burger on 1/2 slice of bread w/tomato
and cheesy broccoli
dinner-goulash
snacks-banana and yogurt

Have a good day,
Edie

I always seem to go in cycles where I am happy/content with me & then I slide down into not liking me.  Even at my lowest weight I struggled with accepting the positives.

I did get to bed early last night which made a big difference for today.  Got in my gym time at lunch, might try a walk after dinner to throw in some extra to make up for missing two days but will see on that one.

b - protein bar
s - banana
l - ham, cheese & tomato sandwich on white wheat bread with carrots & a bit of ranch dressing
s - protain bar
d - chicken (not sure how I want to cook it or what to have with it)

I haven't been on in a while but I need to get BOTT for sure.  I got down to 160 which was 10lbs from my goal of 150.  I didn't enjoy or appreciate where I had gotten.  I just hated that I couldn't get those last 10 lbs.  Now I am up 25lbs and it scares me to death.  I don't want to keep going this way.  My whole life all I did was gain weight.  I was never able to loss more than a little here and there and then I would just gain it and more.  This weight gain started with 5 lbs at Christmas and here I am 25 lbs later.  I can't believe how dumb I was not to see how far I had come.  I look at the pics 25lbs ago and think to myself, how didn't I see it.  But I am doing it right now too.  I am still 80lbs smaller than when I started this journey and yet I feel every bit as big as I ever was.  It is all so relative.  When I was first losing and got to 185 I felt amazing but to be here after getting to 160, I feel like I did when I was morbidly obese.  I know this is head stuff and I need to get it figured out.  I just don't feel confident that I will stop this upward trend and that I can ever get to my 150 goal. 

Breakfast: Water, fiber water, 1/2 and 1/2 protein shake

That's all I know for now.

Thanks for listening.