Much better day

Thank you everyone, and this board, for allowing me to bore you with my ranting yesterday.  It was late at night and I'd just "had it" with myself.

Today is so much better.  I had my egg white/cheese omlet this morning and a little fruit.  I've started exercising on my mini eliptical machine.  It is a miracle!    I love it.  I can sit and do the eliptical which is great because I can't walk very well...even with the weight loss.

Guess I've had some turmoil lately and the eating has not helped.  Work is interesting.  I have completely new responsibilities and my way of learning is to totally fail and then pick up the pieces and go on.   Disasterous for the ego.  Then my daughter (31 and the baby) just moved to another state.  My husband's health hasn't been good and he just went through a liver biopsy.  Gratefully he is ok but pita chips were my solace.  He is still not doing all that great but he'll be able to retire in December.  Retirement is another challenge. 

Anyway, I know that if I put all my troubles into a big basket with others' troubles I'd pull mine back out.  I have been SO blessed in other ways....I just need to remember that.  (Actually, after writing this stuff down I feel sort of sheepish that I'm complaining.  My stuff is really no big deal.)

Ok, I know this is boring so I'll stop.   I'm just so happy I'm sitting down and getting it out. 

Thank you everyone!!   



 

As Tess said. Stop the insanity and stop the foods that you know you should not be eating.
i am living low carb life for a few months now and to be honest - I really do not want - crave most of them. Now I have to remember to add some carbs to what I am eating.  Because I have tendency to just eat proteins and fat and maybe some no starchy veggies (very little carbs).
Yesterday while we were out - I realized that I needed to add carbs and had 4 Dorrito chips (4 pcs). That was enough .... I even did not wanted more. But I needed them since "my meal"  when we were our shopping was just cheese with no carbs.  I know my body need some.... 

Once you get of of habit eating them... it becomes a second nature ... 

Good luck. 

Yes, you're right!  My insanity has the breaks on.

Since I'm a carb monster I have to be very careful again.  Potatoes, bread, all that good stuff....just can't allow myself to indulge.  All that "good stuff" is what got me up to 369 lbs!

Chips?  LOVE them!  Salt, fat, carbs!  Now I'm looking at them like they are the plague. 

My "I'll have somejust  today cause I can start new tomorrow" Just doesn't cut it any more.  I'm having too many "todays" and not enough "tomorrows."    

"My "I'll have somejust today cause I can start new tomorrow" Just doesn't cut it any more. I'm having too many "todays" and not enough "tomorrows." "

This should become my mantra.......

thanks!

Hi Bert's 4
I have been lerking around here too.  We really must get it under control!!!  Lets face it...6 years out it is up to us.  Will power, determination, exercise, self control!  Most people 6 years out have less restriction and our bodies have become super absorbers.  We need to make tomorrow our todays and we can do this.  Perhaps we need to join Tess's planning team.  I know I need more than a protein bar but I don't need junk food...seriously.  Please join me.  (And any other old timers too) Just "not so little old" me. 

What is "Tess's Planing Team?"

Her cafe and cardio posts everyday.  Sort of a plan for the day.

I am sure you will do it but it does get more difficult with time. I am just now beginning to tell myself that this is not what I need to do, but the way of life that I want. I want to be healthy and feel good about the choices I make. I don't need to eat foods that make me feel guilty. This form of self abuse and punishment stops now.
The cycle of eating and being mad at myself needs to stop. So now I eat because I enjoy the food and I enjoy feeling good about my choices. I focus less on what I eat and more on what makes me happy.

What is it we will do?  I'm very interested too.

Everyday she posts her diet plan for the day and what she is going to do for exercise.