Distracted and Out of Sorts

I am having some heaft health issues that I find make me angry. I want to deny that they exist and just do what I want but this is not a wise choice.
when I do what I need to do to take care of myself, I feel I am letting others down. I am yelling often at people and this is not normal for me. Took three months off for stress leave to pull myself together and am better. Still not happy but beginning to deal with the facts and not my wishful thinking.

I am glad I had the surgery so I can not just eat my feelings away and make a bad situation worse. My family has been supportive and helpful. The past two months I have gained 20 pounds so I know I need to really deal with my stress eating habits. working on making sure I bring healthy snacks with me to work so I don;t reach for the chips and cookies.
I know I wil feel better once I accept the reality of my situation but htis is not something I am ready to do yet. Ok baby steps it is one hour at a time.
Thanks for listening to me gripe.

HUGS - hope you feel better.  Hala

Thanks this week end has been much better. Once I wrote down what I was doing to myself I could come to grips with it easier and make a change.

Stress eating is a b*tch.  I gained 70 lbs because of it.  I finally got a hold of myself and reverse the damage.  I took it back off but it took almost 9 months.  I wish you well and sending you good thoughts.

I am glad I have been able to see the damage so soon. I have done a good job eating more sensable this weekend.
Wenyt to the store and stocked up on healthy snacks berries, carrots, and nuts. They work well because you eaat them like junk food and still build your health. I dip the carrots in peanut butter.

 Good Job! 

This is the place to gripe.  ...I know cause I just did!

I'm sorry you are having health issues.  It is easy to feel victimized.  I'm to the point where I get post distress issues just going to the Dr. 

It sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders and will get through this.  At least you know you have to deal with what is happening and will feel better once you've gone through the "grieving/acceptance of reality" process.

Keep writing here.  Group support will help get you.  When we bottle things up it just makes everything worse.  We are not islands. 

Please take care of you.

What you say about us not being islands is so true. I try not to worry those around me so I cover up how I feel. This makes it harder to deal with because I have to be false all the time. If I open up the hover so much it is stiffling. So this is a great way to gain insight and support with out the challenge of feeling responsable for how others feel.