On a roll here..

Another question- when I decided to go back on track and get down to my post op goal, then started to lose- I cannot get rid of the little voice in the back of my head that says this is just like a diet and just like a diet- I will gain it back again, no matter hard I try not to. Is there anyone out there feeling the same way and how did you combat those feelings. It is really a struggle for me to stay on track thinking like this.

I don't have an anwer, but am interested in any you may get.

I have some really bad thinking too.  I have the same thoughts as you, and then there is the....."oh, I lost a few pounds!!!!  Time for a break/treat, it won't hurt."

And the, "I messed up today, tomorrow I will start again," then have more to eat or liquid calories......

Don't feel alone.  We are in this together, and as soon as I can get MY head on straight, I will be right there with you all.

All of those thoughts still fumble through my head too. In fact todays demon is that since I am so run down and not sure why- I should just go back to normal eating and see if that makes a difference. So far I haven't done so but it is hard.. really hard.,

By definition:

Diet, in relation to food, might mean:

• Diet (nutrition), the sum of the food consumed by an organism or group.

To me - it is a diet - diet for a skinny post op RNY person. In particular - "Hala's diet"

I am on a diet.  It is specifically design for me by me - to either maintain, or gain, or lose. Depends where my weight is now and where I want it to be in a future...
 
My diet is my way of allowing my body to be as healthy as I can be. 

Oh wow.. I like that. I never put it into that context before. But I will now.. When I read that, and think  about it that way some of the fear goes away. You are so right too.. This has never been a diet- it was a lifestyle choice I made 8 years ago. I made a different choice 2 years ago and the consequences have not been what I wanted so now I making a different one. One that will make me healthy once again.

THANKS!