Thank you for the PM....

I think the WLS  God's are trying to get my attention!!!! Which is a GOOD thing!

A little history....  my  Mom passed away last month... but even before that... I had been struggling with grazing and eating sugar. My Mom was diagnosised with Lung Cancer last summer, she had chemo but also struggled with blood clots which ultimately caused her death.  Just when I thought I could grief the loss of my Mom.... the household help we have for my Father (who is 95) is telling everyone who will listen to her... that my Father only trusts her... and she needs to present at any meetings my Father attends. My brother and I are trying to get durable power of attorney over my Father because he has demenia ... but don't know if the documentation we have will stand up in court if we have to go that far.

I am up at least 4 pounds from my lowest weight.  I did not gain any weight during the month of my Mom's passing... but each day I tell myself that I am only going to eat my planned meals and snacks.... but each day... I each foods not on my plan... graze... and eat foods that co-workers offer me.

I think I picked out the smallest clothes that I have to wear today... and they feel tight. I  SOOOO feel like a failure ... but I do know that I have a great tool... I JUST NEED TO USE IT!!

So beginning NOW....  I am going to begin posting my food and exercise plans here everyday and check in about my progress.  I need to take steps in the right direction to use my WLS surgery tool!!

I WILL  get to  my goal weight!!!

Helen

I also would like to say thanks for the pm. I so must get my head out of my butt and FOCUS.
I told DH the other night...I'm scared...at 2 years out I can eat more...that scares me to death.Just because I can doesn't mean I should/must.

We're in process of moving. The 3000 sq ft house is just too much...to clean and upkeep financially.
Found an AWESOME 1300 sq ft townhouse. The rent is $500/month LESS and utilities will be loads cheaper.
The community has:
~a 24 hour fitness center...no excuses NOT to exercise. Yay...looking forward to treadmill and bike in addition to elliptical workout.
~24 hour dry sauna. Can't WAIT to use it.
~24 hour outdoor humongous gorgeous pool and spa.
~Game room
~Movie theater/center...sits about 30.
~1 mile to hospital where I work!

Crossing my fingers that the one we want is still available...located on high hill with AWESOME view of Las Vegas strip.

So this a new beginning for me...need to make a fresh beginning in all aspects.
Yes...I'm BOTT

Hey Barb,

I love the way you said it - get your head out and FOCUS!  LOL VERY well said. 

Your new place sounds great financially and with all the facilities!  The view will be amazing.  Congrats. 

New beginning for lots of us!

Thanks, Cathy

Hi Helen,

First off, I am so sorry for the passing of your mom and challenges with your dad.  My mom-in-law was 95 years old and we had the same sort of issues too.  My thoughts are with you.

You are NOT a failure.  You are able to wear your smallest clothes so that is a great thing.  Four pounds is doable. 

I'm happy the PM meant so much to you.  In fact, it did for me as well.  I have been going in 50 different directions that I have been busy and overwhelmed.  So, it helped me too. 

You are right - you WILL definitely get to your goal weight.

Cathy

I feel for you....losing a parent is devastating.  I lost my mother 6 yrs ago at the age of 63.  Not a day goes by that I don't miss her.  BUT she would be so proud of where I am today and I try to draw energy from her strength to lift me up......You are in the right place at the right time.  These ladies are wonderful and seem to have endured .......draw from their strength as well........

Best wishes during these difficult times...

Thank you everyone for your kind words...

I have the meals that I  planned with me!!  I am drinking water and tea now and I will eat breakfast in an hour or so. (I had my AM protein drink from 6 to 7am).

Thank you being there for me while I get back on track... and stay on track!

Helen

Thanks so much for the PM Cathy! I've been here, just working lots lately but I'm back. Have wavered off the track just a touch but getting your PM helps me to get back on track to journaling after a few days! I'm off for a few days so I'll be back on track before you know it. I'm like Barb. Just gotta get my head out and focus!

Helen, I'm sorry about your mom. I lost my mom about 8 yrs ago at 74. I miss her still everyday. I still every so often will think, I need to call mom and tell her _______!  It's hard to deal with somedays. But it does get better and easier.

Barb, I assume the CCRN in your  name means you're a Critical Care Nurse. I am too. I love my job. IT has it's days but I do enjoy it. Congrats on your new place. Sounds wonderful!

OK, I'm back in girls!
Janie

The PM could not have come at a better time.  I am back home from a vacation in Jamaica where I also grazed all day and dabbled with the sugars.

I HATE the fact that I don't dump.  Boo.  I didn't take any chances for so long.....and now it's another story.

Now it's time to get back on track.  I am sooooooooooo thankful for you PM.  You have no idea how much it means to me.

I couldn't have made this journey without all my OH support folks.

I need to stay on track and not beat myself up when I do have a treat.  That is what causes me to fall even further off track.