Good to be back

I have not been on for a while. Was trying so hard in November and December to lose some of my 35 lbs I  gained  (Surgery May 2004). I am journaling,saw the nutritionists and got some great ideas. Had an Upper GI  two weeks ago and found that my pouch is still the same (not stretched). I was plannig a tumy tuck in May but really would like to get to 170lbs before doing so. I was comfortable at that weight but......why can't I seem to get it together and get back to that weight? 20lbs and I can't seem to get 5lbs off. Water is a big obstacle for me. I can get in 32 oz and then it seems to go from there and this week I have tried no snacking at all between meals and I feel starved. I am sure it is in my head but....why can't I overcome this? I try to do the basics and can do so well for 2 days and then I blow it. I would think that having the opportunity to have a tumy tuck would give me the will power to do this but.....why am I so tempted?? I can eat so much at one time also and sugar doesn't seem to bother me either.
I am glad to be back and sorry for such a long sob story!! I enjoy reading about everyone's journey! It is very uplifting. I want to make time to check in daily but is not always possible.
Thanks for listening!!

Welcome Back Jenn, being back on board and asking for help is half the battle. We are here to help support you.  Hopefully being here becoming active and journaling will help get you back on track and back to where you want to be. Going back to basics is never easy, but knowing you can come here for help with your issues is a beginning.

Tomorrow is a new day and a new start for being back on track...this is where it begins.
Protein first...med/vitamins...water...journaling...exercise...log your meal and exercise here on the Cardio & Cafe thread and be accountable!  We may fall down, but we always get back up!

Welcome Back!!!!!

Dreamgirl119

Jenn, when I'm where you are (and we all visit there from time to time) my mantra is "Hunger DOES NOT = emergency.  I've never known anyone to drop over dead because they did not give in to a craving (though our behavior strongly indicates we believe that - my grandmother used to say, What you do speaks so loud I can't hear what you say)  But there, sadly, are thousands who did give in to that craving, gained, and dropped over dead from the complications of morbid obesity.

YOU CAN DO THIS - YES YOU CAN

Please post often (like everyday - just respecting yourself enough to take time to do that will be a giant step in getting back/staying on track) and allow us to share your journey.

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Thank You dreamgirl119, happylapbander and Kathy S., Your support is greatly appreciated. I did so well yesterday and then yep, today has been terrible. I know what I need to do but getting there... I work from home so I would think that would make it easier. I start at 7 and wor****il 3pm when,pick up daughter from school and then work from 4 til 5 or 6. I start out so well adn then by 10am I fail. I eat breakfast and lunch at my desk. So, I either don't eat or eat too much. I know I need to preplan,precook and stay focused. I even buy everything I need such as protein supplements and then I  seem to overlook them. I want so bad to lose to be able to do the tummy tuck early summer so why is it that I know I have a short time and still cannot get focused? Thanks for the encouragement and lending an ear!!
Jen