My First Day of BOTT 1/10/10

Good morning everyone.

My name is Lucy. I have been off track for a long time. I was so close to my goal of 155 but then it got way out of hand.

The past two years I've been struggling and gaining. I even tried a second procedure after my RNY; I had a Realize band inserted in April 2008. My first week post-op I lost 10 pounds and then struggled with the fills of the band. I can say that the band is much more difficult than having the RNY in terms of post-op care. You would think that by having the band I would have learned my lesson and got this under control. Heck no.

From July last year through the end of the year, I've had many problems. My right knee is arthritic and I've had 3 shots in my knee. Right now it is doing better. Then my stepdad passed away and I've been trying to help my Mom cope with her loss. On Halloween, I fractured my left wrist. I am finally healed from the fracture and regaining my strength every day.

I purchased a new elliptical trainer in the summer. I haven't been able to workout, first because of my knee and then my fractured wrist.

I've been going on and off to weigh****chers but mainly gaining and not losing. I've cancelled my RNY surgeon appointments because I am ashamed of my failures.

Now the good news. I was away from weigh****chers for 5 weeks - through the holidays and went back yesterday. I made up my mind that this was it. Whatever the number at the scale, I have to start somewhere. I've been eating and grazing all the time. All the bad things - sweets, snacks, you name it. My band tolerates that very well. I just got way out of control. I only gained 1.2 pounds - I know still a gain but I thought I had gained a lot more considering what I have been eating and how much over the day.

Today I started fresh or should I say back on track. I got on the elliptical and did 3 minutes on it. I have to start slow and build my time. I was fine. I may do 2 more minutes in the afternoon, so that I am doing 5 minutes a day. I plan on adding a minute in the morning and in the afternoon. I had gotten up to 35 minutes a day. Enjoying a cup of coffee with skim milk right now.

I will plan my meals for today and track it on a 3 month tracker I bought from weigh****chers. I haven't been compliant with my vitamins either.

I miss the smaller me and know that I can do it. I do need support and that is why I am here.

I've got 2 tools to use and I'm sure that they work. But, I have to do my part.

So today is my fresh start and I promise to be here daily for support.

I know this was long, but I needed to acknowledge to myself and everyone here.

Thanks for listening.

Lucy

Hi Lucy!

Welcome to the BOTT group - we're here to help you out!  Feel free to post what you eat daily, or do for cardio to our Cafe and Cardio posts in order to feel accountable to people who are going through the same thing that you're going through.

Hang in there - like we all know, it's a bumpy journey, but the final destination is worth it!

Hugs to you!

Kellie

Hi Kellie. Thanks for reading my post and sending me a message.

I'm hoping for support on this board.

I got through yesterday. YAY!

Hugs,

Lucy

Hi Lucy,

After reading all you have been through it's no wonder you have gotten off track.  I think if we took a poll here and asked what triggered  our weight gain it would be some life crisis.  Before we beat ourselves up is it really all that surprising that we turned to life long learned behavior when things start falling apart?   We all have only been living this new life a few years, compared to 30, 40 or 50 years of using food to help us through......

If you have not already done so, read through our getting back to the basic docs.  Make a list of all the things you are not doing like taking your vitamins.  Then take one or two a week and change....  It took me weeks to get back to not drinking with meals.

Reading all about your physical issues it sounds like your best bet for exercising is water my friend.  Try and join a Y or somewhere they have a pool.  Us older ladies really need to move to lose and keep our bodies from falling apart and this would be the best way without you hurting yourself.

I wish we lived closer!!!!!!

YOU CAN DO IT!!!  Join our Challenge and check in with us!

Take care,
Kathy

Thanks Kathy.

It's amazing to see how easy it is to fall back into old habits.

I was so good for so long and then once too many times, fallen down the track - and then it gets harder and harder to get back on the wagon.

I never learned how to maintain.

I got the go ahead to work on the elliptical. That was my exercise before my regain. That's why I am starting slow and working my way back up to the number of minutes again. I will be here everyday for support.

Thanks again.
Lucy

Keep in touch!  We can do it!!!!

Hi Lucy:
My name is Denise, like you, this is  my first day also.  I have gained about 20lbs.  I would also like to say that I too have severe deformity of the knee which is actually bone on bone.  The orthopedic Dr. informed me yesterday that the only way to save my leg from going paralyzed is to have a complete knee replaicement.  The Dr. mentioned me being overweight when I went to see him yesterday and how if I lost weight it would help my knees tremendously.. My response to him was that three years ago I weighed over 300lbs and am now down to 224.  My weightloss surgeon wanted me down to 180lbs.  Right now that goal seems inpossible to me due to the fact that I will be out of commission for awhile and therefore will not be able to get any physical exercise at all.  All in all I am very depressed I was down to 200 lbs and have gained 24lbs back and just hearing a Dr. tell me about my weight again made me open my eyes.  I would like to lose about 15lbs before my knee replacement because I know that I will have an easier time moving around with weight gone.

Thank you all for starting this group.  I think I may find the encouagement I need here.  Today I have had 29 grams of protein.  The last two years I have been very neglectful at paying attention to my protein.  Oh well I will close for now, I wish you all the luck in the world and hope that you reach your goals threw the support of this group.  God Bless you.

Denise