Letting myself down

ok, I have been putting this off for s number of reasons:

I am disappointed in myself
By putting it here makes it real
I know the answers and what I would reply if someone else were posting this

I have been making such poor choices on what I eat.  Yesterday I munched my way through 800 calories of carsmel popcorn - a whole bag.  Aggghhhhh.  What was I thinking - well that's the point I wasn't thinking.  This on top of a whole host of carbs - bread, cake, you name it i ate it.....

I am dealing with so much stuff right now, and I put myself last in the list!  Crazy.  If I put myself and my needs first I can handle the rest so much better.  So why don't I remember that?  I grab the first thing that comes to hand to eat as I'm too tired/busy to plan ahead.  Then that makes me feel more tired and run down due to what I've eaten and the pounds I've gained.  A vicious circle.

Well it's got to stop and it stops right here right now.  Thank you my friends for listening and helping me draw a line in the sand (or should that be a line in the carbs??!!!).  Today I chose the food I put in my mouth and I am going to make the right choices.  I am not going to sabotage myself by putting myself and my needs last.  It is not selfi**** is planning ahead.

**************Hugs to you all*************

Ruth, we have ALL been there. It comes down to deciding what we are going to make a priority. I agree with you when you say it is easier to deal with the periphrials (sp) when we take care of ourselves first.

One of the things that helps me stay on track is planning my meals out at least a week in advance. I make a menu of each meal then I make a shopping list of everything I need to make the menu. Make sure you include the healthy snacks and everything you need for the week. Then I go to the store and buy ONLY whats on the list.

Stay committed to working the plan you make to get BOT.

Thanks Wayne

yes I really need to plan ahead rather than let cir****tances dictate my eating.  I did it when I was first wls so I can do it now.  Thanks for the reminder.

by the way - like the new avatar pic!

Ruth

Ruth,
We've all been there.  I remember eating 8 bags of "100" calorie popcorn, one after another!  I don't know why we do these crazy things to ourselves, but recognizing it and "putting it out there" really is the key to better eating.  Yesterday, those damn chocolate peanut butter bars kept calling my name.  I finally took and put them in the sink and drowned them.  It felt good. 
Take things one day at a time.  You can do it!
Deb

Hi Deb

thanks for your honesty.  Much as I don't wish this eating behaviour on anyone - it helps to know I'm not the only one!!  Well done you for drowing the chocolate bars - hmm...not sure I could have done that, but we do whatever it takes don't we.

Yes, one day at a time - I think that will be my motto until I get back on track for sure

Ruth

Ruth....

I am SO glad you started this post!  I'm going through the exact same thing with eating what I ought not due to stress, time management and whatever that else gets in the way.

It's all easier said than done!  But the thing is it can be done.  I've decided not to beat myself up and that success comes in not how many times you or I fall down but in how many times you get up and keep trying and never giving up.  We are not perfect and will not move along our journey in a straight line.  I take pride in what I've accomplished so far.  You do the same.

Together we will get there even if it means taking 5 steps forward and 2 steps back.  You'll still come out on top by 3.

Hugs!

HI there

when I think about it, I figure if I'm going through something, it's a sure bet someone else is!  So I need to be honest and put it out there to help myself and others..so thanks for your honesty and courage in joining me.

Part of my problem is beating myself up - it becomes a vicious circle doesnt it - eat wrong, feel bad about myself, eat worse!!  Crazy...

Pride in my accompishments - yes so often I forget what I have acheived and look at what I'm not doing well.  Thanks, we will get there together, even if it is slower than I would chose - moving forward that's the key.

Hugs back attcha

Ruth - You can bet we've all been there and done that a whole lot more than once!!!!!

You hit the nail square on the head - make this your mantra - I WILL DO WHATEVER IT TAKES

Reading what you've posted, it suggests you stop before the WHATEVER is carried out.

Remember, you can't pour out of an empty pitcher - if you don't get your needs met, your "pitcher" will become empty and you won't be able to give.  To meet your needs FIRST is the most UNSELFISH thing you can do.

I wish you well 

Hey Ruth,

You've already gotten so much good support and information, so I'm just going to say this.

You know what has happened. You know what to do. You can amend those downfalls as you have done it before. Difficulties be damned, they don't dictate what goes in your body. Your strength lies in yourself, and your desire to do better. You do, and I can see it in your post. So take that first small step by saying NO when that carb monster comes along.

I know you can do it!!

I too have been having a difficult time the past few months. I totally got off track and the sad thing is that I knew what I was doing. I knew I was making poor choices, but made myself believe that I could get back on the track the next day. Well the next day turned into almost 2 months! I put back on 11 pounds! I felt so ashamed and frustrated with myself. However, I went back to see my DR two weeks ago, got a small fill and have lost the 11 pounds I put back on, plus a 2 more!

It is so hard doing this, but so worth it. I figure if I could do it on my own without messing up I wouldn't of needed the surgery to begin with! We are all human and make mistakes, just learn from them and move on. we are all here for each other and I love that!

Kristy